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psalm100 -> RE: My grandmother is dying... (10/4/2007 11:02:25 AM)
Praise the Lord!!! The doctors will perform surgery on my grandmother on Mon. I'm praying the surgery will be successful. My mother seems to be taking everything in stride. Right now I am contemplating on whether to quit my job. The funny thing is that I have already drafted a resignation letter. I'm just not sure when or if I will turn it in. I'm so overwhelmed. I'm really praying about my job situation. I don't want to make a decision that I may regret later. Suffering isn't easy. I know Jesus suffered. But I will be glad when the time comes where there will be no suffering. All of God's children who have accepted His Son will live in eternal bliss. Oh what a joyful time that will be. In the meantime I must continue to fight the good fight of faith.

psalm100 -> Choosing to thank God.... (10/9/2007 8:51:14 AM)
Praise the Lord!!! The doctors decided not to operate on my grandmother. It appears that she doesn't have stomach or colon cancer, but she has been diagnosed with liver cancer. I also have an uncle who has just been diagnosed with liver cancer as well. They are both in the final stages, according to the doctors. As you can imagine, my family is going through alot. When one suffers, we all suffer. I'm just trying to hold on to my faith in God. This life of suffering will come to an end eventually. That's why it's important to build your life on a solid foundation, which is Jesus Christ. If not, when these trials come you can possibly be swept away. It doesn't make sense to the human mind to be joyful in trouble, but that's exactly what God wants us to do. We are to give him thanks whether we feel like it or not. I made a choice last night to worship and thank God. He alone is worthy.

psalm100 -> Please continue to pray (10/12/2007 3:18:49 PM)
Praise the Lord!!! I just want everyone who have been following my blog to please keep my 4yr. old neice in prayer. We thought she had another stroke last night. However, my sister called the doctor and explained the symptoms to the doctor. He seems to think my neice had an emotional attack. This episode happened in church. Of course, we had prayer for her. So right now my sister is keeping a close eye on her. Through it all, God is good. There are far more people in worse situations than myself. I thank God that I made an A on my essay. I just knew I had made a failing grade. I could do nothing but thank and praise God. Just when you think all is lost, Jesus shows up!!!! My grandmother is finally home from the hospital. Her mind comes and goes. My mother, aunt, and uncle are going to let my grandmother decide whether she wants to take chemo. I don't think it's a good idea to let my grandmother decide, because her mind comes and goes so much. I don't even think she is aware that she has been diagnosed with liver cancer. I just pray that whoever has to make a decision, they will be led by God. May everyone have a wonderful and blessed weekend!!!!

psalm100 -> A time of testing (10/16/2007 10:22:29 AM)
Praise the Lord!!! I am through terrible warfare right now on my job. I'm fighting to keep strong in the promises of God. Something terrible happened this week-end. It really wasn't my fault, but yet I still feel responsible and guilty. The enemy has been fighting me hard concerning my job. My faith and patience is being severely tested. Please keep me in prayer, that the will of the Lord will be done in my life. Lord, you see the testing I am going through. I pray You will keep me strong. I want to be released from this job, but I haven't heard anything from You. Open my spirit that I'll be able to hear You. Please don't let me miss Your Voice or Your timing.

psalm100 -> RE: Update (10/17/2007 12:39:13 PM)
Praise the Lord!!! I'm still holding on. Today has been ok. My supervisor told me that they are going through the resumes' and they are hoping to hire someone by the beginning of Nov. This will be a big relief to me. My caseload is increasing by the week. I have 10 new clients this month. We still have a few days left in October. I had to confess some things to God last night. One is my attitude towards my job situation. It hasn't been very Godly. So I am praying God will help me change my attitude. Being upset and frustrated isn't going to change anything. Yes, the situation is bad---but I must try to maintain an upbeat attitude. The Word of God says we are to give thanks in everything because that is His will for us (paraphrasing). I heard a preacher say we learn more about God and His ways when we are going through a difficult season. Some Christians (myself included) want everything to come easy. Well, it's just not going to happen!!!!! So we must continue to trust God.

psalm100 -> Reality is slowly sinking in (10/23/2007 3:40:48 PM)
Praise the Lord!!! My grandmother is back in the hospital again. Yesterday I went to visit her. I don't want to think this way, but I think death is right around the corner. She has liver cancer and she may possibly have a blood clot in her lungs. The physical therapist was trying to help her walk. My grandmother is so weak. She was talking out of her head most of the time I was there. She kept saying she wanted to go home. I told her she couldn't go home that the doctors were going to take good care of her. I told my grandmother that I loved her. She told me she loved me too. It's heartbreaking to see her in the shape she is in. But the only thing that gives me consolation is the fact that she is saved. I can honestly say that my grandmother has served the Lord gladly. She is known as a "pray warrior". In her earlier life, she was known as a woman of strength, integrity and honesty. It's almost as if my grandmother had an unusually close relationship with God. I mean everytime she prayed, God would answer her prayer. My mother told me when I had open heart surgery my grandmother went on a 40 day fast on my behalf. She worked in a nursing home preparing meals for the elderly. She was surrounded by food and I know it was hard for her not to eat or drink. Right now I don't know if she prays or talks to God, but I know God hasn't forgotten her.

psalm100 -> Thankful (10/25/2007 12:50:31 PM)
Praise the Lord!!! I still standing by the grace of God. I just had a mental flashback of God's goodness. Tears welled up in my eyes. I was thinking about how God has kept my 4yr. old niece through all of her strokes and surgery. I'm just amazed at God. The Lord has allowed her to make great progress. Her speech is improving everyday. She stills sees a speech and physical therapist every week. I'm just thankful God had mercy on her and our family. Please remember to pray for the people in CA who are having to deal with these terrible fires. According to the news, some people are intentionally setting fires. This type of behavior is pathetic. I'm praying God will restore everything that has been taken away from these families. Pray for the firefighters, who are risking their lives to help and save others. On another note..... I really believe God is dealing with me strongly in the area of trusting Him. I tend to look more at my present difficulties than God. God spoke this to me this morning: To believe or not to believe is the question. That statement hit me like a ton of bricks. I began to look up scriptures with the word believe. Needless, to say I was very enlightned. I believe God can do anything, but the question I ask myself is will He do anything for me? I guess every christian gets discouraged and maybe even doubtful and times. I asked God to increase my faith in Him and give me the ability to believe that He is a God who can do the impossible. I can't put God in my own little box. I can't limit Him.

psalm100 -> Update on grandmother (10/30/2007 12:00:40 PM)
Praise the Lord!!! The doctors keep telling my family that my grandmother will probably die soon. They called the family back in on Sunday. I spent a great deal of the day at the hospital on Sunday. My grandmother kept telling my mother to praise the Lord. She told my mother that she wants our family to stay together. Her voice is so low that you have to literally put your ear up to her mouth in order to hear what she is saying. I began to cry. My grandmother has taught me that even in the face of death, you can still praise God. She hasn't lost her ability to praise God. I know God is happy and smiling. I know my grandmother isn't afraid of death. I believe she is ready to see the face of Jesus. Jesus already has a place prepared for her. I imagine my grandmother saying as the Apostle Paul said, "I have fought a good fight. I have finished the race, I have kept the faith." I ask myself these questions: Do I want my grandmother to continue to live on this earth in pain? Is it selfish of me to want her here with our family? Do I pray that God takes her home where there will be no pain or suffering?

psalm100 -> RE: Update on grandmother (11/2/2007 10:38:09 PM)
Praise the Lord!!! The doctors released my grandmother from the hospital. My family has decided to put my g-mother in a nursing home. I don't feel the best in the world about their decision. I know no one in my family can afford to quit their jobs and provide full time care to my g-mother. I'll probably go and see my g-mother this weekend. My job is coming along ok. Hopefully, another person will be hired by the end of the month. This will take quite a load off of my shoulders. I thank God that I have lasted in my position this long. There's been plenty of days when I wanted to just throw my hands up in the air and yell "I QUIT!" I also found out yesterday that my job may end in June of next year. When I hear news like this, I usually start to panic. This time it's kind of like whatever happens, happens. I know God has a plan for my life. And I'm starting to think God has so much more in store for me than my job. My life is in His hands. Please pray for niece. Since her strokes, she is having serious behavior problems. She's so rebellious and stubborn. It hurts me to see her act the way she does. I believe there maybe some strongholds that need to be cast down ( according to some dreams I have been having lately.) Please keep her in prayer as well as my grandmother. I hope everyone has a blessed night. Psalm 4:8 I will both lay me down in peace, and sleep for thou Lord only makest me dwell in safety.

psalm100 -> Relying on God (11/5/2007 9:56:44 PM)
Praise the Lord!!! I'm still standing by the grace of God. I think God is getting me to the point of relying on Him more especially when it comes to weathering the storms of life. I think He wants me to pour my heart out to Him and not rely on other people so much. I don't think it's wrong to seek christian advice from other spiritually mature christians, but it comes a point when you need to seek God and get the wisdom that only He can give. We as believers need to be able to hear our Father's voice for ourselves. We need to be able to read the Word for ourselves and obtain revelation and knowledge from God. I don't know about you but I want more of God and less of me. Also I feel compelled to share this with you all. God cares about the little things too. Yesterday while I was at work, the manager locked the office door and was unable to get it opened. A total of 3 people tried to get the door unlocked,but was unsuccessful. We had a few customers in line and I was short on change. My manager asked me to try to get the door unlocked. So I went and put the key in the hole and kept trying to open the door. I spoke to the door and said In the Name of Jesus I command you to open. We need change!! Lord, please let the door open. Instantly, the door unlocked. My manager questioned me as to how I got the door opened. I told her I prayed to the Lord. She looked at me with the strangest look. So you see God cares even about the small things!!!!

psalm100 -> My grandmother has gone to be with the Lord (11/6/2007 10:49:35 PM)
Praise the Lord!!! Well, God saw fit to release my grandmother from her life of pain and suffering. He called her home around 9:45a.m. I'm saddened, but I know she is with the Lord. Thank You Jesus for releasing my grandmother of her suffering and pain. She will be greatly missed, but I know I will see her again. I Love You Jesus. Amen. Please pray for my family. 2Corinthians 5:1 For we know that if our earthly house of this tabernacle were dissolved, we have a building of God an house not made with hands, eternal in the heavens. Revelation 21:4 And God shall wipe away all tears from their eyes and there shall be know more death neither sorrow nor crying neither shall there be any more pain for the former things are passed away.

psalm100 -> A time to give thanks and praise (11/9/2007 8:01:06 AM)
Praise the Lord!!! I woke up this morning with the Lord on my mind. He is so good to me. I have been going through some very rough, difficult trials but God has kept His promise that He would never leave nor forsake me. I thank Him for giving me the grace and ability to weather these trials. Yes, I have had to shed a few tears and I have even thought about giving up. I owe God all the praise and glory. My grandmother's funeral will be Saturday. I knew her death was coming so I had a little time to prepare. I'm missing her already. I'm going to miss her homemade biscuits and molasses. I even joked to myself, maybe when I get to Heaven she'll roll up a batch of those delicious biscuits! I'm going to miss her giving praises to our God. Lord, knows my grandmother didn't mind praying anywhere or anytime. She loved God so much. My soul rejoices, because I know I will see her again. I came across this scripture earlier this morning: Psalm 116:15 Precious in the sight of the Lord is the death of his saints. That scripture fits my grandmother well.

psalm100 -> RE: A time to give thanks and praise (11/15/2007 8:12:50 PM)
Praise the Lord!!! My grandmother's funeral was Saturday. She looked so beautiful all dressed in white. I'm sad and missing her very much. It's almost as if her death is a dream, but it's reality. I know I must continue to live for God. I have a promise from God that I will see her again. Last Friday, I heard the Lord's Voice audibly. I knew it was the Lord speaking, for God says His sheep knows His Voice. He told me to lov e Him and to grow. He just kept repeating those words to me. This year has been a very difficult year. There have been so many trials and challenges. But through it all God has sustained me. I know I must walk by faith and not by sight.

psalm100 -> Update (11/19/2007 10:11:36 PM)
Praise the Lord!!! I'm beginning to feel discouraged again. I'm mentally, physically, and emotionally drained. I am ready for the Thanksgiving holiday. I won't have to work and maybe I will be able to get some much needed rest. I'm supposed to register for my spring classes tomorrow. I don't know if I can afford to pay for my tuition and books. I'm not eligible for any type of grants. I'm so frustrated. I'm praying God will make a way somehow or another. Please pray.

psalm100 -> Happy Thanksgiving!! (11/22/2007 1:54:56 PM)
Praise the Lord!!! I would like to wish everyone a Happy Thanksgiving. Christians know that we should be thankful to God everyday. Without Jesus Christ we would all suffer in eternal damnation. Thank God, Jesus died and rose on the the third day. He was obedient even unto death. Remember those who are still fighting in the war overseas. Pray that God will bless them and allow them to remain strong and courageous. Pray that God will keep them safe and allow them to return home to family and friends. Pray for those who are grieving today as a result of a loved one's death. Pray God will comfort their hearts and give them peace and joy. Pray that God will use us to provide clothes to the naked and food and shelter to the homeless. A Thanks to my Heavenly Father: Thank You Daddy for all of Your bountiful blessings. You continue to amaze me. You cause my head to be lifted up. You are an awesome Dad and I love You very much. My hearts desire is to trust You even though things may not look good in the natural. You encourage me to keep running the race You have designed for me to run. Your Word is my delight. Your Word is truth. I love the way You keep revealing more and more of Yourself to me. I love You always. Seeking to do Your Will, Psalm100 I hope each and everyone of you will enjoy your family and friends. Remember to keep seeking the Kingdom of God and His righteousness!!!

psalm100 -> Update (11/26/2007 7:26:05 PM)
Praise the Lord!!! There's not too much going on right now. I enjoyed the Thanksgiving holdiay. I had the chance to fellowship with God during my short vacation from work. I can tell you God has been speaking the truth of His Word to me. I have grown so much through the reading and meditation of His Word. The Word tells us we can't be hearers only but also doers of the Word. I pray daily for God to help me to be obedient to Him. This flesh of mine will do and say anything if I don't pray and ask God for strength. As the Christmas season approaches, please remember to let Jesus be the reason for the season. Gifts, food, and holiday gatherings are nice, but don't get caught up in a spending frenzy. Far too many people are in major debt trying to buy gifts they really can't afford. I am determined this year not to get caught up in the "worldly" way of celebrating Christmas. I prefer to spend time with God and my family. I'll buy gifts that I can afford. I'll continue to let Jesus rule and reign in my life.

psalm100 -> RE: Update (11/27/2007 10:13:18 PM)
Praise the Lord!!! I am once again at my wit's end with my job. They have yet to hire anyone to help me. My caseload seems to be increasing by the day. I am totally overwhelmed. I don't know how much more I can take. It's seems as if the people who are hiring for the position are dragging their feet. They probably think as long as they got me to do the job, they aren't going to be in a hurry to hire someone. I want so desperately to put in my resignation, however I don't think that's a wise move right now. I am just praying for God to help me endure.

psalm100 -> RE: Update (11/28/2007 4:11:46 PM)
Praise the Lord!!! I didn't go to work today. I called and told my supervisor that I wasn't feeling well. It felt so good to lie in my bed this morning. Of course, I have been having many thoughts of putting in my resignation. If I quit there will be no one to train the new person that they are supposed to hire. I am trying to not just think about myself, but also about the agency. Chances are my job don't give a co hoot about me. I have been praying about this situation. God seems to be so quiet. I don't know what to do. I am dreading tomorrow. Sorry about the venting......

psalm100 -> RE: Update (12/5/2007 8:41:08 PM)
Praise the Lord!! Well there is more bad news. The doctors have told my family that my uncle doesn't have much more time to live. He was diagnosed with liver cancer a couple of months ago. They are going to stop the chemo treatments. As you may recall, my grandmother passed away of cancer almost a month ago. My mother is really having a hard time seeing her brother (my uncle) in the shape he is in. It's so heartbreaking. My uncle weighs less than 100 pounds. The good thing about it is that my uncle gave his life to Christ almost a month ago. So you see God will save you on your deathbed. That's just the kind of merciful God we serve. Right now all we can do is pray and wait for God's will to unfold. Update on my job: They are having a meeting next Thursday which is my birthday. Hopefully, a decision will be made as to who will be selected for the job. I am trying to hold on as long as possible. It is God who gives me the strength to continue on this job. Here are my tentative plans. Whether everything happens the way I plan it, I don'thave prayed and asked God for guidance and direction concerning my life. 1. Pay for my classes by the end of next week 2. Continue to work on my job until Feb. 3. Give my 30 day notice in Feb. on my lease for my apt. 4. Move back in with parents by March 5. Focus on school 6. Work my pt-time job

psalm100 -> Fruit bearers (12/10/2007 10:27:07 PM)
Praise the Lord!!! My uncle is back in the hospital. The doctors are giving him fluids and blood. I went to visit him. He is so frail and thin. He seems to be in good spirits. I don't know if and when God is going to call him home. I'm praying that God will remove the pain and give him peace. It's a difficult time for my family and me. I know God is going to give us all strength. My pastor preached out of John the 15th chapter. He spoke about being connected to the true Vine Jesus Christ. I had the mental picture of a tree. I saw little branches scattered on the ground everywhere. Those scattered branches were pretty much useless. They bore no fruit because they weren't attached to the vine. The branches that were attached to the vine had beautiful luscious fruit. This just reminded that as long as we are attached to Jesus we can bear good fruit. The good fruit consist of love, joy, peace, longsuffering, gentleness, goodness, faith, meekness, and temperance. Lord let us bear good fruit in our lives. Help us to understand and realize that apart from You we can do nothing. I pray our thoughts and actions will glorify You. In Jesus Name, Amen. John 15:5 I am the vine, ye are the branches He that abideth in me and I in him the same bringeth much fruit: for without me ye can do nothing.

psalm100 -> He's Worthy (12/11/2007 7:00:09 PM)
Praise the Lord!!! No matter what is going on in my life (good or bad) I was always try to begin my blog with Praise the Lord!!!! God is good no matter what is going on. He deserves all of the praise and glory. Sunday night I just began to praise and worship the Lord. I didn't ask Him for anything I just wanted Him to know that I love Him. I kept telling Him that He is worthy to be praised. I felt His presence so strongly. I finally drifted off to sleep. I slept like a new born baby. As Psalm 33:5 declares the earth is full of the Lord's goodness. I challenge you take a moment and worship the King of the Universe. Don't ask Him for anything, just let Him know how much You love Him. Let Him know He's worthy of all the praise. Thank You dear Lord. I know I was created to worship and praise You.

psalm100 -> Just checking in (12/17/2007 12:14:50 PM)
Praise the Lord!!! I just checked in to say hi to everyone. I've been having problems with my laptop lately. I'm starting to think maybe the computer salesman ripped me off. On another note: Remember to keep Jesus first. Don't get caught up in shopping and forget about our Lord and Saviour Jesus Christ. For He is truly the reason for the season!!!

psalm100 -> Our love for God (12/20/2007 7:48:41 AM)
Praise the Lord!!! I can hardly believe Christmas is next week. My how time flies!!! Last night I went to my sister's church. They had their annual Christmas Program. It was wonderful. I liked how everything that was done and said glorified God. I love to be in the presence of other saints. On Tues I was feeling really down and depressed. But thank God today and yesterday I feel a whole lot better. I have been pondering on God's Word. I can't seem to get away from John 14:21 which states: He that hath my commandments, and keepeth them, he it is that loveth me: and he that loveth me shall be loved of my Father and I will love him and will manifest myself to him. So how do we know that we love God? The answer is by obeying Him. That means loving Him, Serving Him, Worshipping Him, Honoring Him, and Loving others (including your enemies). Love is action and conduct. We can't just say, " I love You Lord!" and not put His word into action. Also, those that love God and keep His commandments are the ones that Jesus will manifest Himself to. Could it be that Jesus saves the deepest revelation of Himself to those who have a heart that will seek Him? He is a rewarder to those that dilligently seek Him according to Hebrews 11:6. How can you show that you love God?

psalm100 -> update (12/21/2007 9:04:33 PM)
Praise the Lord!!! I just came back from looking at Christmas lights. All the houses were decorated so beautifully. I have to work tomorrow and Sunday. I am off Mon, Tues, and Weds. of next week. I welcome the break. Please pray. I am missing my grandmother terribly. I have been praying for a loved one's salvation. Please pray that God will save and deliver this person. It's a shame when your sin affects the lives of others. I'm still loving Jesus and will continue to do so.

psalm100 -> RE: update (12/24/2007 2:12:47 PM)
Praise the Lord!!! I have been busy since I got out of the bed this morning. We are having our annual family and friends get together later on tonight. I am going to spend the next few hours getting the food prepared. I hope that each and everyone of you has a MERRY CHRISTMAS!!!!! Remember to keep Jesus first. Without Him we would all be lost and doomed and forever separated from Him. Isaiah 9:6 For unto us a child is born, unto us a son is given and the government shall be upon his shoulder and his name shall be called Wonderful, Counsellor, The mighty God, The everlasting Father, The Prince of Peace.

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