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jfaye -> RE: Are you saved but not baptized? (3/26/2008 10:25:59 AM)
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I appreciate all the 'enthusiastic' responding to this thread, but I probably didn't make myself really clear in my OP! I'm looking for those, like LL and Jimbo, who have experienced salvation apart from baptism, something you know is true, having the Holy Spirit within you, before following His prompting to be baptized! My contention is, that we are saved and follow through with the VERY IMPORTANT step to make a public and tangible identification with Christ in baptism. I was saved and baptized the same day being a good Southern Baptist at the time, but never thought of it as the moment I received His Spirit. I was definitely filled with an indescribable joy, the morning of the decision, and couldn't wait to get home to tell my mother, who was less than enthused at what she feared was an indoctrination of a young mind, but was eager to be baptized at the evening service the same day! I'm just wondering how it was for some of us! I also 'experienced' another 'cleansing' type of 'feeling' while at college when I began to doubt my salvation, because I found myself questioning if I were truly saved--I was angry with the Lord for not making it clear to me, by a profound 'feeling' as a mature person. I was initially saved (I believe) when I was 12 yrs. old. I look back and can clearly see that my whole perspective changed at that time. I had been a very troubled young person, having come from a home where my foather was abusive and such, my parents divorced when I was 10 yrs. old, and my mother remarried within 18 months. My brother died who was 9 yrs. old, not long after her remarrying and then I was saved that summer after. Anyway, I remember the night where my anger was at it's height toward the Lord. I remember sorting through my closet of clothes to pick out something to wear to dinner. I flung clothes back and forth and prayed, "Okay Lord--if you are not going to truly save me, in a way I know it to be a fact then just take me now! I can't live with an 'axe hanging over my head' like this, 'feeling' if I die I will be damned. I can't stand the wait--just do it!" Oh, and I had not fallen into iniquity from my first 'salvation-experience'! I was heavily involved in church activities, from 12 yrs. on, having been a 'front-row sitter' by choice apart from many of my friends who preferred to sit in the back row and pass notes during the services. But, as an 18-yr. old, I lacked the 'joy' I saw many others seem to have on campus! My room mate, asked me (while I was thrashing) to go with her to attend the prayer chapel service they had on Wednesday evenings, which I had never attended before. It was to pray for the needs of many missionaries on the field. I thought--"Why not--I've nothing else to do be sit and think and be angry"! I went, but things were different that night. There was an actual missionary there to speak of his ministry needs. What he actually did was say that he was feeling compelled to talk about the love of the Lord and His desire to save. He said he felt there was someone, there, who needed that assurance in this group of about 30 people. I fell apart. I knew it was me! I went forward afterwards to talk with Him and pray the 'sinners' prayer'! When I left that place I promise you, I felt like I was walking about 3 ft. off the ground. I rushed to my dorm to tell others I had been 'saved'! There was a fireworks display that night, before Thanksgiving and it was this campus' tradition to do the fireworks! I honestly felt like they were just for me to behold as my joy was so real as to be physical swelling within me! This 'feeling' of being 100% pure, carried over to the next day as I walked across the campus the next morning and I remember praying as I looked up at the crystal clear sky on a very, very cold day and thinking, "This feeling cannot last forever and I'm going to mess it up very soon--I hate to lose it so much!" Of course, the reality is that it couldn't be maintained--this 'feeling' of cleanness, but now I am left with 'What was it I experienced'? Was it truly salvation for the first time, and real and the first time I made an honest and sincere confession and baptism was not real? If the first was not 'real' then I never was baptized after the second 'experience' and yet, His Spirit is absolutely in me! I do not believe we are saved and lost and saved again! That is not logical in God's economy. If we could be saved and lost, why would He ever save us in the first place to lose us again? Please--do not make this a OSAS discussion, I am just making clear that one of these two incidences was the 'real deal'! Either the first, or the second. If the second, then I never was baptized afterwards! Do I lack the Holy Spirit for the lack of water baptism, if it was the second 'experience'--absolutely NOT!!!! Am I confusing everyone with this 'salvation experiences'?
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