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whisper -> RE: Not so saintly prayers to God? Anyone? (4/22/2008 3:17:56 AM)
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Hi folks, just dropped in and read through this thread - it's very interesting. To answer the original post, there have been seasons in my life where I have approached God about all things with temperance, meekness, and self-control. And it was honest. There have been other seasons in life where I have approached the throne of grace with absolute chaotic frustration and have brought the things on my heart in the very condition that they were in my life. And it was honest. While I don't think I've ever sworn at God (though I may have), I did approach with what I'll call an honest tone. I'm not implying that a composed air is false or dishonest, but that my pleading, erratic, explosive stance was, in fact, quite honest. Perhaps I was displaying more of the fruit of the spirit in the days that I was able to compose myself when I spoke to God and to do so with a right understanding of who he is in relation to me. But that's just it - my tone here is a reflection of my life and understanding of God at the time. On the days where my prayers burst out with tears and screaming and punching pillows, my understanding of God and life had been shaken by circumstance, and I had also been far less concerned with my propriety than with reconnecting with God. My tone, yes, is a reflection of my heart. And some days my heart is in tune with God. And some days it just really, really isn't. Yeah, I probably was less spiritually healthy when exploding, maybe I was far from him, but I think the question "but is God pleased?" may not be all that pertinent at a time like this. I understand that armydude may disagree with me here, but I'll explain. We need to come to God and give him all our junk before we can be transformed. When I had been in a state where all had been relatively open before him for a while, God's goodness, holiness, and grace were forever on my mind and coloured what I thought, felt, and how I responded in a state of crisis. When I had been in a complete broken state and in an active state of doubting or reforming my ideas about God, I come with a lot of grief with a lot less tact and respect. Maybe my prayers were disrespectful, but then again, I was too. "is God pleased?" Well, I would hope that me running back to him, even if it is to ask a million angry questions before embracing him - I would hope that he is pleased with this if not with my tone. There is likely a great many things about my character at that or anytime with which he is displeased, but I have come to be transformed. He will cause that to happen. He will instill in my respect and a correct picture of who he is, and who I am in relation to him. quote:
When David approached God the way he did, he did so out of his ignorance and lack of understand about God at that moment in his life. When I just don't get it, when I'm completely ignorant and lack understanding about God at that moment in my life, I do believe God wants me to bring that to him in prayer. And if my tone is ignorant, and if I lack understanding in my speech, that's where I'm at. Maybe God wasn't pleased with the psalmists tone, but then, God often isn't pleased with ignorance or a lack of understanding in any form. At that point in time, I think God is there to correct and guide and transform and renew EVERYTHING, including our tone and our ignorant view of our relationship with him. This has been long, but I guess if I were to summarize my personal stance: - I have been respectful in tone when I've had a healthier picture of who God is. Those tempered prayers were honest and meek and respectful. - I have been less than tactful and have raised my voice with God and expressed anger in my tone. It came out of a place of ignorance, but that too was truthful. - In all these things I come to God. I understand that not everything in my prayers is good and pleasing, but it is GOD who works in my to will and to act (and to pray?) according to his good purposes. He will cause me to be mindful of him. He will draw me to my knees. And when he does, I am again reverent. - Be mindful of God. And when you find that you aren't, and that you're angry, and that you're stressed, come to him as you are. He'll remind you of his grace. - This isn't an excuse for deliberate and continued arrogance toward God or pride and self-interest. We must allow God to transform us. We can be honest, but that honesty must reflect where we are, and where we are should be continually changed by God. When God is teaching us about his holiness, it is not a time to range against him in irreverence. I have no idea if I've made any sense here, but it is 1:22 a.m.
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