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MsSara -> Hey guys.... Bad day. (4/25/2008 12:48:08 PM)
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Hi all! Today isn't the best day, but I've got a smile on my face as usual. I've been at my job going on a year and shortly after I got here I was approached and befriended by the most amazing man I've ever met. He and I are like pees and carrots, and we practically became confidants over the first six months I was here. Through him, God put me in the Church I have been looking for my entire life and now I have an amazing church family. He is in an odd relationship with a much older woman, who also works here. It has been up and down since I've been friends with him, and at one point he got out of it completely because he didn't like the direction it was headed. During the down times, he and I became more than what you would call typical friends. We are able to talk and encourage each other and keep each other accountable because we both have pasts we aren't proud of and we both know each others strengths and weaknesses. I know God put him in my life for a reason, and maybe that reason was to bring me to Journey (my church) and to help me get started growing closer to God again, but I was sure hoping that wasn't the only reason. Anyways, the struggle I'm having is that his relationship is on again, sort of, and today is his last day working here. He has been calling and texting me all week and we've spent too much time together, which makes me feel horrible because he is seeing this other woman, but he means so much to me. We don't really talk at church anymore, because since he tried to get out of his relationship, his girlfriend who never came to church with him before, comes along now. SO basically, when he leaves here in about two hours, I'll still see him on Wednesdays and Sundays, but I won't have my bestfriend anymore. Honestly is sucks and I'm crushed, but I just don't let it show because it isn't the first time and I know it won't get me anywhere to be upset. I don't know what I want from y'all, but if anyone can think of anything to say, or would pray for me to have peace about this, I would appreciate it. I am a strong, independent woman, but I really care about my friends, and I feel like I am losing a part of me with him because I can't help but to feel like it was meant to be more.
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