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WaitingforBoaz -> RE: Pooh's Thotful Spot (8/25/2008 1:52:42 PM)
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ORIGINAL: Focusing
While I'm here, I would just like to contemplate the state of my singleness.
At the moment, I am truly thankful for it.
Yes, that is correct. I am glad to be single! [:D]
Don't get me wrong, I have a wonderful sweetie and am grateful beyond words for his presence in my life for more reasons than I can list ... but I have a coworker who is going through a really bad time in her marriage. And she tells me all about it. [&:] I understand she needs to vent, but maybe I need to duck for cover when I see her coming. But she sits right next to me. Having been there and experienced the ickiness of a broken relationship that has lead to divorce, wow, it sure makes me think long and hard about the potential hazards of marriage.
***looks around nervously***
(is anyone throwing tomatoes?)
Really, I am fully trusting in God, and when He confirms a future husband, I will walk in faith knowing that God has given me a husband to love me and for me to love, and we will keep God in His rightful place: as number One in both our lives, the One who joins us together in all matters.
But the memories of unresolved arguments from the past ... I let them go, and I hand them to God, and I continue on my walk with Him in faith, and yet, I see something or hear something and the memories come back and haunt me again.
Am I the only one who thinks that totally stinks? Sometimes I wish I could go in with a magic eraser and take some of those memories away permanently.
It's a strange state of emotional lingo. How do you make it go away?
Maybe my faith is going through another storm. Mabye there's no maybe about it.
I will be wandering around aimlessly for a while in the woods.
I feel your pain. I am smack dab in the middle of two divorces. My sisters, and my nieces.
I babysit my nieces twins who are 20 months old (she has 4 children) everyday so she can now support herself and 4 children. I also bring the children to the father for his visits or he picks them up at my house so they do not have to interact. This is just so fun for me.[8|]
My other niece visits me on the weekends and I have to go and pick her up each time because she does not want to be with her father all weekend and with gas prices the way they are this is difficult on a tight budget.(she lives pretty far away.) You're right, I have no idea how to say no.
So to get back to the subject of other peoples divorces having an effect on how I chose a partner, it is having a huge effect. I was asked out yesterday after church and I had to tell him no because I knew It could never go anywhere. He was very nice looking and super nice. It would have been sooo fun to go out. So I got in the car and put on one of my favorite CD's and cried miserably.[&:]
I am also starting to compare every man to someone I met recently which I know is wrong,[8|] and it is making me crazy.[:(]
All of this however does not make me happy that I am single. I kinda envy you that right now.[:)]
~Blessings
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