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BibleBased -> Walking alone with Jesus helps most (5/2/2008 5:06:30 PM)
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This week i have again been reassessing my daily walk with our Lord, and i discussed the matter both with my mother (also a christian) and my wife (not a believer). My decisions are the same as they have been for 10 years. I am withdrawing again from weekly church services. Why? Because 1/2 an hour once a week doesn't help me at all. Easter week made sense, a service every day and fellowship etc. But 2 hours a month is not being part of a church. I have also decided to leave my bible study group, because it is so poor. A couple of ladies use it for nap time, the leader reads for an hour and then gives us no time to discuss. At home i read 2 bible chapters a day, usually seperately. I often scan many bible books/ chapters every day. I read commentaries on individual books and use the Matthew Henry full 6 volume commentary regularly for reference. If i study a book i use 4 different bibles to get different translations. Also i teach my eldest 3 sons every evening 365 days a year - i actually don't know ANY christian personally who teaches their chidren - that's the churches' job apparently. The sad thing is nearly always when i come into contact with other christians they depress me and try to destroy my faith. Well they have no chance there, i'm rock solid! They don't want the bible, or they know it backwards but don't believe it and teach against it. Where is the true church? I've tried many denominations and none want my children. Where are the 'bible' believing christians. I've had all the discussions church is important and it tells us to attend in the bible. Been there. Actually it says to meet as christians, which was mostly in house churches and church means 'all called out' believers. The organised churches just are not biblical and a lot of the people in the Anglican church don't even want to be called Anglican any more! It is a little sad that the only way i can have a strong daily walk with our Lord is almost alone. Just me, the bible, prayer/ talking to God and a few good christian friends. Because when i go near a church or even worse some christian web sites all i see is christians abusing christians in ways non christians never would. I just want to meet christians who want the Word of God and to meet together in love and peace. Also i want them to want to get off their bottoms and go out and do mission work. I can spend my money on gospels and give them to non believers, but whole churches can manage a leaflet 3 times a year with no bible passages in it! The church in the UK is almost dead. 4% attend church and i don't think i've met one who wants the bible who isn't in a paid position. Revivals and churches with large congregations turn out to be bible less, pop music and little bible. Last one out, please turn off the light! Actually it worries me what mission organisations are converting people to. Because if one of the people i give a gospel to, response and wants to learn our faith, i don't know what i'll do after we have read it together. I can't say go to this church or that, or ANY and you'll grow. Because all the churches i've been to want me to give up my daily reading and live a compromising life. You'll tell me your church is great. You'll tell me it loves children and families especially. You'll tell me the minister is super biblical and the study the best ever. Perhaps you'll tell me you are involved in spreading the bible every week? I've heard it too many times. I go, it's nothing like that. I'm not even sure what the point of this topic is. I continue to hope and pray i will meet a group of believers like me and be able to join them. Be able to study together, pray together and yes get out on the street and work together in God's work of converting people/ God's children! Because even in mission work, i have to work almost alone. Because no organisation will touch me without a ministers letter. Which amuses me because if i went once a week for 30 minutes, i could get that letter without picking up a bible, but i'm not a hypocrit. People who don't know the bible, have the weirdest beliefs because of it, can do mission work - but i have to work alone. Do you run a mission organisation? Would you let me join? So you see you force me outside the church by your own actions! Well in the next few weeks i'm going to regroup, strengthen and grow again. I've been held back too long by churches and non bible believing, if that is possible even, christians. I believe i am where God wants me - but i'm open to offers, a church, a study and definitely God's work he gave us, mission. Love BibleBased.
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