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Modes-T -> RE: My queries outweigh my Faith, help? (6/5/2008 9:19:21 PM)
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Thank you, everyone, who took the time. Especially those who really -responded-. Like deermouse and the others. Those posts took time, possibly hours, and I thank you. Money comes and goes, time can only be spent once. Thank you. I will admit I did not take the proper time to write my post, I would even say it was a bit hasty. I expected a poor reception from this community, (as with so many others). This is not the case, and thank you, all of you. This is going to be in depth. This is going to be long. I think i may become more active in this forum, maintaining my current perspective, to express my questions. To ask one person, a minisiter, a friend, a family member these questions, alone in a room, does not produce the quality answers and in depth, open minded approaches you get online in forums. So... here we go. For those of you, like me, that rarely read names before they read a post, I started this thread =). I'd like to address, first, Miril and ESPECIALLY bible7. Miril, the ire of my next few words are for bible7, you were quite polite and I respect your view. I live each day with the knowledge that we have power as humans, the power to create and to destroy with our minds. This I know. I live a life that needs no justification. I don't feel the need to repent for my actions, because if my actions are fueled by greed, hate, envy, spite, or anger, I can be fairly sure I don't want to do them. Why? Because I love people (except "gangstas", they annoy the hell of out of me). Not because god will punish me, I'll punish myself. My worst sins are within, and I accept my greedy nature, my angry nature, as a part of my humanity. My worst sin is premarital sex (or just plain old "lust"), and I'm not going to defend it, and say "everyone does it." I lust, I do. "Sins of the flesh," if you will. I don't go get hookers, I don't have one night stands, but in a relationship I'm comfortable in, sex is good. It's wrong. Ok... But I give, I love, I help, and I live humble, very humble. You see me as atheist. You see me as evil. You see me as sin. But most of all, You see me living in opposition to you. I'm not ingorant, I'm not dumb, and I mildly regret my original posts scatters brained message, and I accept my own fault in misleading you as to my intentions. However, given your assumptions.... You are foolish, and see link: http://dictionary.reference.com/browse/foolish I choose my words carefully, so as not as to be more insulting that I need be. disregard definition #3. Responses like your "you just want to be greedy and sin" have taken me away from a lot of god's people. I know from my youth, partying as I once did, metal shows, lots of drinking, etc. that biggest gripe of those little wierdos in black, in no one will explain god to them, simply because they are so looked down upon. I promise, those little wierdos will greet you with open arms if you greet them as a friend. Please, consider more, before you respond. Keep in mind, there is no response that will cause me to look down my nose at you, as I'm sure you have at me. (Other than "Yo yo YYOOOO, whhassuuuuppp!"...) Watch http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ccCsSXuMlLY , if you don't believe it, google / you tube "Messages from Water." My thoughts are greatly affected by learning of this. I hate less. I greed less. I even let go of a lot of biggotry and my life improved just.... immensely. But this isn't what this thread is about. I appologize for my hasty, unrevised approach in my original post, please let me elaborate. My question is not if/where/when/how/ and/or that there is a god. I know immense scientific FACTS, not assumptions, not theoriess, FACTS (will link later) that do NOT defy god, but make the idea all the more fascinating, and creates a situation where the lack of a "God" is impossible and almost absurb, Something had to do all of this. If the electron had a slight shift, in greater, or negative charges, the sun would not burn. Slightly more hyrdrogen, slightly less oxygen, there would be no life. The fact the universe is infinitely large and we know it's expanding at an alarming rate. (See parallax measuring of the stars, google, proof is in that all neighboring galaxies are moving AWAY from us). The strong belief in the Godly community that science outright defies god is false. Quantam Physics and the newest science since the theory of relativity defy predestination, not god. I threw predestination out the window years and years ago, and I accept as a right of intellectual thought, that I am reserved into not wanting to believe predestination, therefore, I probably never will. I have a strong belief, deep inside, that's burned since I was a kid, that makes me feel disenfranchised from the church. I just feel it's wrong. I presented these questions as if to ask god, these questions are more to the Christian faith than god. God's up there, my question is in the exhistance of this omnipotent being that's so uniquely involved in every single human's life, who loves us or damns us all in turn, standing in righteousness against satan and evil. Why bother to question Christians specifically? I was raised in a christian environment, so, this is where I direct most of my questions. Really, I've found I "identify" (note the word, carefully chosen) most with the more peaceful, less greed inducing manner of buddhism and hindhuism, but the elephant gods and reincarnation as a cow when you finally achieve the highest levels seem... well, a lot more absurd than any of my gripes with established western religions. I'm my personal evolution, I've decided to say my peace with organized religion, smile upon those with faith, even envy them. It heals, it uplifts, and it's a wonderful thing. Other than the establishment (I'm not at all anti-establishment, either.) I've talked to god, prayed to god, and explained my soul. I have thousands of faiths here before me in America, and I am free to choose. I live my life as pure as I can, not living my a strict set of rules or commandments, but a moral standard that leads me toward good (see above). However, I am here addressing an innate fear I still possess, that feels wrong to have, or wrong not to obey. I'm not sure which. I don't like fear though, not at all. God knows no steps I take will be directly against him, I have convinced myself if he knows me inside and out, by the time I die, I will be worthy. Now, I was told to "think of better questions" and "do some research." Let me dust off my folder's here and move my lemonade... K. Well, some of these questions, like "How do we know we're right?" are hard to answer, if not impossible. So, let proof mean validation. Without lengthy quotes, deermouse says the 2000 years of church history and it's persistence, referencing the creed of nicene, is just resolution of this validity. quote:
So look at a church that maintains the basics tenets of Christianity: Jesus is God, Jesus became a Man, He died for sin and rose from the dead to prove it was forgiven. The Holy Spirit is God, and God is a Three-Persons-in-One (we don't understand that because we aren't that way, but the Bible teaches us that's how God is). The Nicene Creed came about from the Council of Nicea to clear up what to believe. Look it up if you aren't familar with it; I hope to die someday with those words on my lips. It's a statement of faith. This is a little ascew from proof. I do not want to sum it up to briefly, so as to mislead, but I don't want this to be to long (cuz it will be...) But, the First Council of Nicene was the first Ecumenical Council, invoked my Emperor Constantine (known catholic, either future or former bishop, not sure when along his way it was). To further clarify, and Ecumenical Council is, (borrowed from wikipedia) is "a conference of the bishops of the whole Church convened to discuss and settle matters of Church doctrine and practice." To say this council is proof of Christianity validity I cannot agree with. A council of christians, lead by a christian, to agree upon what aspect of Christ are to be believed, and which are the be disregarded, is not proof. I could (and I'm sorry for how arrogant this may sound, it's merely an example, this is a very sincere apology, as I do not want to offend, just make a point) take a council of Muslims to "prove" shi'ite ideals over sunni ideals. Or a council of buddhist to discuss where, how, and when the buddha reached enlightenment, and what of his method was most important, or even a council of 4 or 5 years old to determine the color of Santa Claus's front door mat. All of these would present the same level of validation. Now, "Proof." This question was not accurate enough. Moses parted the seas. Is there an other organizied society or doctrine that coincides with this, other than the bible? The return of Christ. Is there any other doctrines or schools of thought that agree, witnessed, or can also, to some accuracy, account for this? Any other major event in the bible's history are subject to this consideration. The destruction of Sodom and Gaumora(sp?), the great flood? Basically, has there ever been non-believers rationalize down to agreement with the bible's story? Abraham lived over 2000 years. Isaac lived almost as long. Do any other documents, anywhere, ever, even with the most infinite stretches of imagination and interpretation, does ANYTHING say this is possible? Not that they in particular did it, it's really easy to say "that was before document history." But, according to the bible, and without ages and ages of digging, the overall life span of human degrades over time (as a result of sin), and these totally OUTRAGEOUS lifespans do, in fact, continue onto the first civilizations. Moving on... On the question of predestination, god knowing our hearts, inside and out. This one I was also horribly vague on. If he understands the end, we are unnecessary. Infinite wisdom and knowledge ends us at a point where... why bother? Not just a point where/when/why did jesus have to die for us, simply... Why bother? Keep in mind, our exhistance as humans, to an ETERNAL being, is a flicker. So... if you whack your foot with a hammer, it's gunna hurt. Thought experiment complete. This is because you are limited in wisdom, but wise enough to know hitting yourself with hammers is unpleasent. With INFINITE wisdom, this human race lacks real end-game purpose, because it's simply... understood. Not by us, but by the things that creates our purpose. For me to admit to a belief in god, it only makes sense that he understands the human creation very well, but not infinitely. I'm going to tie back to this in a moment, after presented the next piece of my little puzzle. I asked, stupidly, no less, "Why won't god answer some prayers?" Giving amputees as an example. This needs to be rephrased. "Why will god never, ever, under any circumstance, answer a prayer that is outside the realm of coincidence or human capability?" I.E., why will god never again, since moses and the times of bible actually HAPPENING, not the period in which is was written, in which undeniable acts of gods seem to be no more, perform a true miracle? A miracle that cannot be explained to coincidence, that cannot be done by man? To part a sea, to send an angel, to reveal himself despite the infinite pleas of his people? It seems as though the bible is supposed to be enough for us to suffice. Tying in with predestination, we know god can perform true miracles. To make things happen outside the ream of coincidence or human ability, to defy our strict laws of physics, motion, and time, and to intervene? Knowing he could, history and our worldly observations tell us that he hasn't. The things that happen do not happen arbitrarily, but follow a strict set of rules. Why is god so unwilling to reveal himself? Also, in response to amputees having limbs grow back with miraculous healing, I googled and googled, yahoo'd once, and I asked jeeves. Nothing. Could you provide some hard evidence of this? On a lighter note, some of the prostetic limbs now-a-days are fascinating. Now, to address the "thou shalt not kill" contradiction. "Thou shalt not kill unless the person we deem holy enough to speak directly to god (pope) tells us it's "ok" to kill these people because they're sinners." This, once again, seems like a facade. So, a bunch of holy people go sit alone and meditate, and walk out with gods permission for Genocide? And the bible tells me to trust these people? Do what? Yes, the crusades were not part of the bible, that was a bit of misinformation and a little spin coming from me. The Crusades are the work of those people in the paragraph previous. The ones who said god said it was ok. Just like every other "holy war." God is a mighty scary commander and chief and, in my eyes, makes great leverage. Now, onto things like the great flood and the age of the earth and the falsities of the word, written before anyone could fathom the tools of the future. I was asked where I got a 6,000 year old earth. I got it from my asking of questions. I've never seen it the in the bible, nor has anyone else (it's not there). But, many christian scholars agree with this logic, as this... http://www.independencebaptist.org/6,000%20Year%20Old%20Earth/6,000_year_old_earth.htm ... is the standing argument for it. Now, for the counter argument. Everything we measure, or observe, outside of the bible, totally disagrees with it. Our observations put the earth at about 4.5 million years ago. Half Lives. Long story is here http://www.madsci.org/posts/archives/2000-08/965364844.Es.r.html Basically, when a radioactive material is formed, it starts to degrade due to it's inherent instability. It degrades in half lives. The more radioactive it is, the faster it degrades. Say, for example, we take an element with a half life of 10 years. It starts at 100%. 10 years passes, it's at 50%. 20 years pass, it's at 25%. 30 years pass, it's at 12.5%, and so forth. Looking at what we have here on earth, naturally occurring elements, measure them against newly created elements, coincides with the "Old Earth" theory. This, I feel, is most substantial and repeatable. There are many other indicators, the ice in greenland, coral growth, etc. http://www.religioustolerance.org/oldearth.htm has many, many more details, with the common counter-arguments. Also, one of the responders here stated, in response to my "All the water in the world couldn't cover mt. everest" said that the mountains could have been formed by the flood. This is not true. Water disolves earth. The ocean floor changes constantly with the tide, but "underwater mountains" are quite solid, as they are formed by the earth's plates pushing against each other with such force, that the only direction left to go is up. No amount of water, or current, could stack a mountain with such a sharp, defined peak, 8,500 meters in the sky. That's just a no. Also, the idea of this ark, would of absolved all civilization (that was the idea, I think), and we would have SOME proof of this occurance, and life would have started, with ALL species of life, stranded on a single continent, without means (other than flying creatures) of reproducing on a different continent. Somewhere, over 40 days and 40 nights, a larger marine species would have died inexplicably inland, as the tides would have changed DRAMATICALLY, fish would have had NO sense of direction, and somewhere, one would have died leaving a whale or octopus corpse in some wierd Edited TOS 5 location we couldn't explain. We haven't found any of this... Why? Deermous, in response to my argument of "God will never answer some prayers" and the he answer all prayers in "Yes, no, and wait." My gripe is with the infinite circle if "easy explanations" it creates. Any scenario can be answered in this manner, and you would NEVER know the difference if the answer is no. So, when there is no answer, and no coincidence occurs, you can assume "no" or "keep waiting." You are always satisfied in this manner. These are present on all forms of religion and I beg the question, with INFINITE power (that's a BIG word), why no? Why suffer? with infinite power, there's simply no excuse for it. EDITED TOS 6 There is no "answer" here in that the circle is infinite, in the "Yes, no, wait" logic, it always works because there's always a rational explanation. My real question is why would that ever be necessary, in every religion known to man, (other than those that preach self-awareness) unless the original writers knew the fallacy and needed to explain a manner in which god is ALWAYS there for you? This is what leads me to believe god is not so individually involved with us, and more guides humanity as a whole. This school of though leaves room for suffering, starvation, and other attrocities, and there is no need to "blame god." (as I've found myself doing.) It does, however, remove that sense of comfort that god cares about you in your own, special form. Now, onto a school of thought where my ideals meet with God, and unify. This, I want to know, is it blasphemy? I do not (anymore) fear god. I do not think god ever wanted us to fear him. You can affect someone who loves you equally and with the same methods as someone who fears you, UNLESS you want them to serve a cause they are in direct disagreement with. For instance, if someone loves you with all their heart, and you ask them to run a worldly brother, a fellow human, through with a sword. He may. His own personal convictions and reservation will play much stronger in this decision than if it was based on fear, for their love for you in their own, created by them, and is free for them to hold it's own value and is free, totally, to question. Lets say they fear you, by pain of death and suffering, be it you have a gun to their head, or whatever, and you ask of them, again, to run that same brother through with a sword. There's no room for personal values to apply, there is "action or punishment." This defines christianity, the "action or punishment" view. You can simply "be good" or "be noble." there must be action, you must act for god, to believe god, to accept jesus. Mother Teresa is theoretically burning in hell right, right next to Adolf Hitler. If you do not take this action, there will be punishment, and for that, we are taught fear. I believe this is wrong, fundamentally, for the human race, and this was NEVER god's plan. I do not fear god. I've plead my case, I've talked to god, what he has shown me has lead me away from established religion is general, not just Christianity. quote:
I'll take your question a step further: why would God save any of us? Look at us - a more wretched hive of villany and scum you couldn't find anywhere (to borrow a great phrase - I hope I got it right). We're sinners, in love with death and hiding from the light. Created in perfection and blowing it the first chance we got, and all the following generations finding new ways to pervert it. All we deserve is death and hell. That's the bad news, and it's real. This is not real. Where there is good, there is evil. I look upon death and despair and I feel pain, and I know I'm not the only one. There are those that embrace evil for personal gain, there are those that fight evil for nothing, not even glory. We are, in amazing truth, a miraculous balance. My mother, god bless her, has worked her hands to the bone, for strangers and the unworthy. To be just and good, and for no other reason, and for that, I shower her with appreciation. She is not the only one. I do not believe we are inherently evil, and the idea of "original sin" of which we are born with, is also common in ALL religions. "To be ignorant and holy is not enough, you must repent for sin you are inherent with." This brings it's relevance to everyone, makes it inescapable. Now, consider all these at once. We all sin. We all must find god. We all must give to god, be it spiritually or financially (god always needs money, or so many of his "followers" exploit), None of are innocent, We all sin, We MUST follow his command, BUT he only tells the highest members of the church to then tell the followers. Does this not seem inherently corrupt? When did we, the people, become some distant from direct, divine intervention and inspiration? Why do we not have the direct contact? Look in this forum at how many people wonder if they've heard from god, or just heard something from within themselves. The higher powers (pope) are divine enough to say, with 100% truth (supposedly), and that is not their divination, this is the god's law. Now I know, the time of god saying "kill the islams" is done (though, apparently, he told Bush to do it). Simply because the church lacks real strength to lead rebellion in today's day and age, but in more recent history, the pope has to "converse" with god about clergymen touching kids, gay marriage, action in the middle east, etc. But, it was only him, no one else is allowed this "access." Why? Deermouse said that we could never hope to understand god's love or god's hate. With infinite wisdom and -forgiveness-, this implies he is quite above "hate." Hate is an emotion for the uneducated and ignorant. Infinite wisdom and forgiveness allows understanding of sin to come and inherent forgiveness. Why is it god finds punishment necessary, when it's said we reach heaven, we gain wisdom beyond our human form. I would assume this wisdom is quite enough to absolve and previous urge to do a foolish thing like greed, lust, pride, gluttony, sloth, wrath, or sloth? Why is it he does not love us enough, in this "infinite" love, to understand we may fail in this life, and sin may overcome us, but the gift of his purification would set us free? If he is wise enough to understand we may succumb, why is he not wise enough to forgive, inherently, infinitely, without cause? The punishment for this failure, eternity of suffering, by the way. Now... all this being said... ... Will god forgive me in the end? I'm afraid I've given up in a lot of ways, of finding this blissful, blind faith, due to my god-given pre-disposal toward asking "Why." Edit - Not important, it's just bugging me. I know octopus's don't have bones, and therefore, would not be in the fossil record from any such event. Scratch those, but whales, sharks, and other things. I just saw this when I was re-reading.
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