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HannahElizabeth -> RE: Husband is falling apart - Please pray (6/12/2008 9:57:40 AM)
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M-Paul ... Just as Itlyn1kc stated that it felt as though God equipped him/her to pray specifically for this situation, I can see God at work in your comments to me. A few months ago, my husband decided to share with me the name of his church. He doesn't know this, but I listen to their Sunday sermons online. Sometimes it's painful, as I imagine them sitting there holding hands, as we used to do. Of course, I don't know if they do, or if they are even there every week, because she's always hated church I think she goes to placate him. But two weeks ago I know for a fact that he was there, because he took our daughter, and it just so happened that the pastor was moved to talk about David, and how he took another man's wife, and reaped what he sowed. That afternoon when he dropped off our daughter, he looked broken down, but I hadn't heard the sermon yet, I was in a hurry to take our daughter somewhere, and I just thought he was being odd. He's often odd nowadays. This is when I first started noticing how terrible he's been looking. Of course, I don't know if the sermon was the reason, however, I like to think that God is breaking something within him. But getting to the point of this...sometimes when I listen to the sermons, God really uses them to speak to me, and one of those examples was last night. The pastor talked about what you just said - that you have to trust God that even when it takes a long time, He will come through. That what we need to do during the battle is to keep God is the forefront of every area of our lives, and wait. It is the aspect of the battle being long that stuck out to me then, and through your words. Thank you for encouraging me to remember that God is going to make a better life for me in time. He is already working joy in my life. I feel better about who I am as a person, He's using my creative gifts in ministry again, He's leading me to stronger friendships and opportunities to serve others. I exercise more and I am just generally finding ways to enjoy what I have, rather than fretting about my losses 24-7. Friends tell me they can't understand how I can be so calm, but it's Jesus, being the Lover of my soul, being my companion, letting me know that I'm whole and worthy, even without my husband by my side. Also, what you said about prayer and waiting on the Holy Spirit...I went to a new church last Sunday. The idea of going there just sort of fell into my lap, or so I thought. It turned out that the sermon was about engaging the enemy in battle, not sitting back but realizing that it's a war, so put on the full armor of God. Speaking back God's truth when lies are spoken in your ear. Praying and praying without ceasing. He was moved to lead us in an extended prayer time, and I went up to the altar. I had a hard time finding the words to pray, and I waited for the Holy Spirit to come upon me to help me, as you said, pray a better prayer. I kneeled and cried, and a woman came behind me and put her hand on my shoulder and prayed in a prayer language, and she cried. I don't know what went on there, and why I felt restricted in my prayer, but I knew I was there for a reason. Yesterday I decided to drop by my daughter's school on the way to work, as she'd spent the night with her daddy. I felt lead to pray, and I prayed and prayed and talked through my route to God. It felt like a battle. My husband typically drops her off a half hour earlier, but to the second, we arrived at the exact same time. He was clearly happy to see me and was waving, but then put up his guard when we were out of our cars. It was awkward, but we walked into the school together, as a family. Of course, I can't read my husband's mind, but I am hoping that God did something within him. When we saw each other that afternoon, he was pleasant and chatty. I am believing and praying that God is going to continue working in this man, putting situations in his path that help him to see that where he is going with this adultery is nowhere, and that new life and joy can be found in our family. We just both have to fight for it. I have to keep praying that the man who used to fight for us will come out of this stranger. Thank you for sharing your powerful, powerful story about your wife's recovery. I'm being lead to pray as though it is absolutely God's Will that our family be restored, that He hasn't given up on my husband, that it's just a long battle. Please keep praying with me. Thank you for everyone here who is believing and praying with me. I treasure every one of your prayers.
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