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beachcooky -> I don't like my family. (7/11/2008 5:35:27 PM)
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My whole family has treated me wrong. It wasn't until tonight, I decided I need prayer.
I was sexually abused when I was ten or eleven. When I first got sexually abused, my mom blamed me because I didn't tell her sooner. My abuser was still in my life, my parents didn't stop him from seeing me, after they found out too. He's my cousin. He wasn't allowed to go to my house, but I had to see him most of the time.
At age dad, my dad used to beat me. It's been going on for 9 years. I've received several bloody noses. I was the one who was punished for it. I was told that it was my fault that my dad beat me. Even doctor's said that I need to shape up. And they didn't even say anything to my dad.
Overall, I've had a ton of hatred towards my family. I now have post traumatic stress disorder because of the incidents I've had with my dad & cousin...and that will never go away. I was the only one who got punished. I left home, I didn't come back until 2006. My dad still lays his hands on me, but whatever.
Both my parents (I'm 19) look upon my little brother who's 16. They are always praising him and stuff. And they don't even give me a second glance most of the time. They tell my brother he's amazing, he's so talented, etc etc. But for me, they give me no praise. I've been through a lot. I became a Christian 2 years ago, and since then, I've changed for the better.
But the hatred is still there. I am so numb.
Can people pray for me so I can eventually forgive my family?
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