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humbleinspirit -> The Humble Rumble (4/20/2005 9:14:09 PM)
Hi folks, welcome to the Humble Rumble. Here is where you can find out about my rumblings musings and thoughts as I go about day to day. Here is a link to my old postings. I may eventually transfer all of my postings here if it is permitted.

humbleinspirit -> RE: The Humble Rumble (4/27/2005 10:36:25 PM)
March 2, 2004 OK, I guess that my blog is official now. March 4, 2004 Here is my second entry to my blog. Now, Its kinda funny, I have heard from a couple of people that have been interested in knowing that I now have a blog, and have since decided to start following my postings. To be honest, I am kinda having a little bit of stage fright now. While I thought that I would be posting my thoughts here from time to time, I didn't think that anyone would actually be interested in what I had to say at all, lol! --- Today's random thoughts: Men and women think differently. You know you need to buy a new iron when the existing one that you have starts smelling like its overheating and sets the smoke alarm off. Now, that is especially worth noting when you have cooked lots of bacon in the previous few weeks and nothing of the kind has happened at all. Oh well. March 6, 2004 Its been two days since my last entry, and thought that I should post an update. While surfing forums this morning, my 17" monitor made a sudden pop, and went completely dark! With little or no warning, it died on me! While it has been showing warnings signs here and there the last few months, it had not been particularly been doing anything to indicate that it was heading to an eminent doom! Praise God that I still had my old rinky dink 14" monitor still hanging around and collecting dust. When my other monitor went belly up, I immediately grabbed the monitor that I am using now, and plugged it back in. Now, while this monitor just seems too small for the screen, and can only really support 640 x 480, it is still a bit better than the 17" one, which was showing some colors so dark, that I could not view photo's or pictures of webcam's too well, even though the pictures themselves were ok. I had this such problem when complaining about a photo that I had posted over a year ago looked hardly visible, only to find out well after the fact that it was not the picture that was too dark, but my monitor instead. I am not particularly complaining now though, as I had really been wanting to replace that one anyway. So, here I am, on a Saturday afternoon, using this old monitor that feels somewhat like a cluttered apartment. Oh well, I guess that I will just have to adjust for now anyway March 10, 2004 Not much to report right now. I have been reading other peoples blogs here, and it is amazing to see into other peoples life, their musings, their concerns, their struggles. Kinda widens my view to realize that we all have our stuff that we deal with. Today was another usual day. I am part time and my set hours are for 5 hours a day, with it regularly being more hours as it is busy. The last 2 days have been slow though. Went home early, that is at my regular time as opposed to staying extra. Not getting the extra hours is not too good though, as I have been making much less than I did from previous jobs, and really cannot afford to only be working part time though. This evening has been interesting. My apartment has seemed to developed a mice problem, and there is this baby mouse that has been peeking his head in and out all evening. He will crawl out, start venturing close to me, but when I move, he runs under something. He is becoming a bold little thing. However, I really need to buy me a mouse trap soon though. Well, that is the news that isn't. More later. Blessings, Mike --- BTW, I got 17 people following my blog? WOW! Thank you for being a part of my world! --- Another slow day at work. I missed breakfast and only had a blueberry muffin. I asked Jesus to bless my work day, I felt a resignation in my heart that said "granted!" and my day went great! Now, I do not know what I do to deserve such grace, however, I am happy that Jesus does see me through the little things though. I have appeared to have caught some type of bug again, the second one within two months. Been coughing at work, no fun! Because I missed breakfast, I ate lunch at a nice restaurant. At the end of eating, I started to cough something fierce again. I headed to the bathroom until the coughing stopped. Needless to say, I am not feeling very well at the moment. While I am not bed ridden and will still be going to work tomorrow, I am really not up for doing much at all, and in fact think that I will be taking a nap very shortly. I was pondering starting a blog reply thread, just like a few others here have done as well. I do not know if I will or not yet though, but chances are that I probably will. March 11, 2004 Yet another slow day today. I have appearently come down with a cold, and was napping earlier. I felt a bit weak. It might have been the Tylenol Cold medicine that I had taken, but am not sure though. I am checking out 2 roommate situations this weekend. I really do hope that one of those 2 works out. March 12, 2004 Well, I made it through another week. God is good. Still fighting a cold. I think that I am going to rest for a while. March 15, 2004 I have not had such a good day today. I do not feel like elaborating on it right now, but probably will later though. I guess my reason for wanting to wait is the fact that it would turn into a full blown rant, but I just do not have the energy for that right now at all. --- OK, I am going to say this much, there are some things that just really bug me about the world. Usually this always has to do with someone not doing what they should or supposed to be. As I speak right now, my upstairs neighbors are engaging in an argument. They are shouting, and starting to bang things as well. This is a part of living in a large city. Now, I ask you, what happens when you have lived in the city your whole life, and your nerves get shot and you go into overload? What do you do when everyone else around you cannot even comprehend that city life is driving you up the wall? What do you do when other people, who have probably mostly lived in places such as New York or a small hick town move to Boston because they love the excitement? I was also wondering if someone could help explain this pet peeve to me? How can anyone have so much on their mind that they cannot pay attention to where they are walking to the point that they mow you down? I personally think that people that do this should have their walking privileges revoked. Other things on my mind, my paycheck bounced again today. This is the 3rd time that this has happened in many weeks. What really gets me is that my boss has been on me about the pace of my work, and yet he can't even make sure that there is enough money in the bank for my check to clear? Sometimes I really do ask myself, "God, where are you? Is this the life that you really wanted me to have?" OK, it sounds like my neighbors have calmed down a bit. I really need to get out of this situation, but really do not know how though. I am sinking fast, and I am hoping that the pail that I have is enough to pull me out. March 17, 2004 Today was a better day than a couple of days ago. I have been very tired, and rather worn out. I am behind in posting in certain threads, in which I feel that I am now neglecting. I have unanswered notes that I have as of yet to attend to as well. I am feeling quite tired right now. My employer paid me 75% of what I was owed yesterday, and gave me approximately another 10% of it today. He says that he will be paying me the rest tomorrow. I know that I really need to find a full time job, and also move out of Boston, but how? I seem to have no energy to do so these days, and yet it is vital that I do. I am probably going to be meeting with my pastor on Friday of this week. The last time that we have met, we both had mutually decided that I really did need get out of Boston. Now, how I end up accomplishing that is different matter though. I checked rents around and in neighboring States. Rents are still way too expensive. The only exceptions are if I live in one of the distant cities from here, however, I am pretty much tired of the "city" thing for the most part, or at least the stress that is associated with living in a New England city anyway. I really want to get away from the insanity and excitement of it all. Even my spiritual life is fledging these days. So, the big question is, where do I move to, and how do I successfully accomplish moving once I have all of this figured out? Now, a few cities come to mind, which is not at all comprehensive. However, the top runners are either Nashville or Colorado Springs. Even St. Louis would be more promising than here, although I am not entirely crazy about the area though. Other cities or that have my interest, but have not been able to check out yet are Phoenix, Cincinnati, Virginia, Missouri, Pennsylvania and Washington State. All I know is that there has got to be places that are much more calmer and civil than Boston is. Now, notice that I didn't at all mention New York, Washington DC, California, or even Chicago. Those are the places that people who want to live in Boston also consider. I want to get far away as possible from this mindset that Bostonian's have. I value sitting back and relaxing, and yet this city seems to thrive on adrenaline! OK, I guess that I will end typing now as there is a lot here already again. I know that God created me for a purpose, but I have yet to find that out yet at all. Until next time as Casey Kasem used to say "keep your your head in the stars and your feet on the ground." March 18, 2004 Another day has come and gone. I finally got paid the rest of what I was owed from my employer today. Things are still very decidedly strained though. I had some strange dreams last night. Now, have you ever been in a state of a subtle sleep where you know you have dreamed quite a bit through the night, but cannot remember what you had dreamed about at all? Guess I will leave it all at that. Sometimes I wonder if I am posting too much in here at all? In any case, I am glad that tomorrow is Friday. March 19, 2004 Miscellaneous Posting Alert Every now and then, I will be thinking about old songs, then right out of the blue, I will think of some odd song that I haven't heard or even thought of in years and years. Well, earlier tonight was one of those such times. While not really thinking of nothing, right out of the blue, I immediately think of "The Clapping Song" by Pia Zaddora! Now, talk about a blast from the past! Now, that song was a top 40 hit way back in the Winter/Spring of 1983, and a song that I have not thought about in ages! Sometimes I even amaze myself!

humbleinspirit -> RE: The Humble Rumble (4/29/2005 11:26:26 PM)
March 30, 2004 Well, I guess that it is time for me to post here again. As I sit here, I find myself rather relaxed after another busy day at work, but also having to deal with the insaneness of living in Boston. Personally I believe that anyone who thinks that there is nothing wrong with this city is living in denial, as I think that you got to be absolutely mad to want to live here, but anyway... I am happy and blessed that things have been picking up at work, but not happy that it seems to be either feast or famine though. Either things are too busy, or not busy enough! Boston is still really stressing me out, and I keep wondering how much longer I will have to live here, etc. I wish that I could live in a nice calm place. Maybe someplace nice such as New Hampshire or Maine. Or perhaps someplace South such as Nashville or North Carolina. Maybe the plushness of ultra mellow place of Washington State. Now, I do know that I have mentioned some of these places before, but I just really do not know how I will be able to transition from point A to point B. I have lived here all my life. Some people seem to always be relocating and it is second nature to them. Not for I though, wherever I end up, it will surely be a momentous and life changing event for me. Another small thing to mention, whenever someone's cell phone rings, the loud pitch of the phone effects my psyche so much that I cannot do anything other than completely freeze, or have to leave the room or wherever I am. I then feel stressed out for a good 5 to 10 minutes after that, and the feeling is not all that unlike accidentally zapping yourself with electricity. Now, I do not know if this is normal or not, however, I am willing to put a bet on it that I am not alone on this. Well, that is what is going on in my life at the moment. I am expecting to hear about a couple of other things regarding my life soon as well. Mike March 31, 2004 Well, I guess that it is time for me to post here again. As I sit here, I find myself rather relaxed after another busy day at work, but also having to deal with the insaneness of living in Boston. Personally I believe that anyone who thinks that there is nothing wrong with this city is living in denial, as I think that you got to be absolutely mad to want to live here, but anyway... I am happy and blessed that things have been picking up at work, but not happy that it seems to be either feast or famine though. Either things are too busy, or not busy enough! Boston is still really stressing me out, and I keep wondering how much longer I will have to live here, etc. I wish that I could live in a nice calm place. Maybe someplace nice such as New Hampshire or Maine. Or perhaps someplace South such as Nashville or North Carolina. Maybe the plushness of ultra mellow place of Washington State. Now, I do know that I have mentioned some of these places before, but I just really do not know how I will be able to transition from point A to point B. I have lived here all my life. Some people seem to always be relocating and it is second nature to them. Not for I though, wherever I end up, it will surely be a momentous and life changing event for me. Another small thing to mention, whenever someone's cell phone rings, the loud pitch of the phone effects my psyche so much that I cannot do anything other than completely freeze, or have to leave the room or wherever I am. I then feel stressed out for a good 5 to 10 minutes after that, and the feeling is not all that unlike accidentally zapping yourself with electricity. Now, I do not know if this is normal or not, however, I am willing to put a bet on it that I am not alone on this. Well, that is what is going on in my life at the moment. I am expecting to hear about a couple of other things regarding my life soon as well. Mike --- Libraries in my area seem to be very noisy, and I do not mean by little kids yelling at all. In addition to scalfolding, someone is now talking on their cell phone. Yes, I am quite serious. April 5, 2004 MMM...MMM...MMM...MMM I heard this song on the radio today on what the local radio station called their life-saver. I just had to chuckle when I heard that they were going to play it. When the song came out 10 years ago, my life was in pretty bad shape. I was very upset with life, in a horrible job, and not really walking with God. Now, while I see some similarities in my life now as opposed to then, I can safely say that things are not really as bad as they were 10 years ago though. God is good! How do you know that you know? There is something that is striking me as very alarming these days, Mormons are preaching the message using almost the same tactics that evangelicals use. Earlier tonight, I ran into a couple of witnessers, and they were asking me if I wanted to know more about their Lord and Savior? Mormons! So, what is one to do when confronted with such counterfeits? I asked them "how do you know that you know that you know that you are really saved?" They quoted the usual propaganda that Mormons do, basically saying that the book of Mormon and the Bible are the same thing. I just had to shrug. Now, I realize that nothing that I could have told them would have changed their mind at all, however if nothing else, I hope that I at least created some doubt in them. April 10, 2004 I just started a thread in Faithwalk called Absolute Honesty It asks the age old question of if it is ever OK to lie? This has something that has been on my mind a real long time now, and is a thread that I have been thinking about starting since at least Christmas. It is one of those issues that I continue to wrestle with myself. It ranks high up there right along with whether Christians should obey the law and whether women should be in leadership roles at church or be pastors, etc. I am hoping one of these days to have a more settled "peaceful" conclusion to all of that. April 14, 2004 I seem to be stuck in 1984 right now. I keep thinking about this Top 10 countdown that I used to do like it was Glory Days, and then get dumb-struck by the fact that "this was 20 years ago now" my how times have changed! April 15, 2004 Tax Day Well, I finally waited to the last minute to do my taxes today. I so long because I thought that I was going to owe. I ended up using one of those computer Tax Programs to do them, and much to my amazement, I was actually getting something back! This almost euphoria was short lived though when it said that I owed over 200,000 dollars to my State! Now, what did I do to have my taxes far exceed my income? Apparently while to the best of my knowledge, the tax program while computed my Federal Taxes correctly, it decided to take those extra decimal points for cents and turned them into whole dollars. Needless to say I am not a happy camper at all. I do not know what I am going to do at this point. Sometimes life just seems to be way too much. April 16, 2004 Well, I finally got my taxes filed with just minutes to spare! I decided not to use the company that erroneously calculated that I owed 200,000 or something to that effect in taxes and used someone else instead. The end result? I ended up getting a refund from the Fed and ended up only owing about 100 dollars to the State. Now that is much better than I had originally had thought, and if I knew that it was going to be that reasonable, I would have filed a lot sooner! Needless to say, I am relieved for the most part. My only concern now is that the original company still ends up charging me even though I did not end up technically finish completing everything at all. Hopefully it will be OK, but we will see what happens though. Hopefully nothing will come of it, but you know very well how companies are these days though. Tomorrow is Friday! April 17, 2004 It is such a beautiful day outside right now... I was just chatting with a friend online, and she asked me "how often do I eat out?" I told her "a lot!" She then asked "why don't you eat in more? It would save you a lot of money." I told her "true, but what usually happens is I find myself hungry, and have to eat now. Cooking at home would take too long, as buying something would be just much quicker." Then I added "maybe I just need a wife instead." After saying that was a sexist comment, she asked "what if she is a bad cook?" I replied with that "we would be eating out a whole lot more often then!"

humbleinspirit -> RE: The Humble Rumble (4/29/2005 11:39:43 PM)
April 19, 2004 Just something that is on my mind right now Earlier today, I went to the store to buy a couple of housecleaning and a couple of other basic necessities: Paper Towels, Toilet Paper, Scrub Pads, Shampoo, trash bags, etc. Paper towels were on sale 2 large rolls for 4 dollars. When it rang up, one of them rang in as 1.29 and the other rang in 2 for $4.00. Now I thought, thats odd, why was the first one less than the other? I checked everything that I had, and it turned out that I had grabbed a smaller size roll along with a larger one roll by mistake. I went back to get this exchanged, and I said "I bought this one by mistake, I meant to buy this one instead, can you exchange it please?" She got all confused, not knowing what I was talking about. After a few minutes of making heads and tails of things, it was all set and I was happy. I just went to the laundromat because the washers in my building are not working so well at the moment, plus I didn't have any extra quarters anyway. After doing the wash, I noticed that the dryers were all yucky with gunk, and decided that I was not going to dry my laundry there after all. Before I did that though, I figured that I should go back to my apartment to pick up the trash bags (remember them?) that I had picked up earlier because my clothes would be wet. When I went looking for the trash bags though, I couldn't find them at all. My thinking don't tell me that they forgot to put the trash bags in the bag? Sure enough, I look at my receipt, and no trash bags were listed. Thus I had to buy extra laundry bags at the laundromat instead. Now, the thing that bothers me is this. All of these things are a result of people somewhere either not knowing what they were doing, or not seeming to care about the upkeep of things. Anyway, I just thought that I would mention this as things such as this seems to happen much more often than not. --- In other news, reading forums is addicting. Now, I know that this is nothing new or anything, but still... April 20, 2004 am deeply grieved today. I just read earlier what Lisa (consecrated2God) had posted in her Blog, and I am absolutely troubled and alarmed by what she had talked about! I am in fact at a loss for words! I have always found Child of Protection services to be an abusive organization and very much overstepping their boundaries. I have found the same to be true of police sometimes overstepping their authority as well. Well, I do not have a whole lot else to say right now. I think that I am going to sign off for a bit, and think about all of this for a while. April 22, 2004 Here it is nearing the end of another week. While I was reading forums today, I came across at least 4 threads with lots and lots of posts in them! Now, one of them I did not mind at all, because it relates to the subject that I had posted about just the other day above this posting, however the others were not so thought provoking. Most of the other threads were more or less a back and forth fight about what amounts to the blame game. And while I have my oppinions too, there is something that really annoys me about all of this. By the time I had gotten to the fourth folder I find myself thinking blah, blah, blah! Basically I got to this point of "this is not fun anymore!" Now, I do not mind a debate, however when it starts amounting to people making personal attacks with just distorting the facts, then its worthless to even bother reading. April 24, 2004 It is another Saturday. I know that I have not mentioned this at all, but I am moving in with a roommate by end of the week, and this is my last weekend in my apartment. I am kinda happy, but also sad about it all. It should be a nice new experience though. I was up early this morning, then went back to bed later. While I was sleeping again, I ended up having one of those dreams where I actually realized that it was just a dream. At first in the dream I thought that I was awake, but then some things did not add up at all, and I said to myself, am I dreaming? I must be dreaming because these events are not making sense! Now, this is not the first time that I had a dream like that at all. I do duly remember having one dream over 10 years ago where I was telling my boss off about something (he was a really hard person to work with) and mentioned to him in the dream that "even if I wake up tomorrow and go into work, and you had the same exact dream that I did, there is nothing that you can do about it at all because this is only a dream!" WOW, now talk about taking a prerogative! I was wondering does anyone have a copy of this weeks Top 5 most read forums that they would be willing to email me? There was a glitch in my subscription list this week and as as a result, I have not been getting my emails from them at all. If somebody could could send me a copy that would be great! Thank you in advance! Blessings, Mike April 26, 2004 It rained out in Boston today and I got to play another favorite Boston pastime: umbrella dodge. This is where not only do you have to worry about people mowing you down, but you now also have to worry about not being poked in the eye for their carelessness as well! And while I have never actually been poked in the eye per say from any of these clueless people, however there have been several upon several near misses though. They ever get so close heading right into me that I am actually able to thump the other persons umbrella just from putting my hand straight up completely vertically! I also found myself walking through one of the newly designed post offices in Boston earlier as well. And while they are now state of the art and slick, I find myself reminiscing on how it all used to look like many years ago. On my way home, I was hungry and I decided to treat myself. I went to a place and asked for a double chocolate chip brownie. They were more than happy to serve it to me and then said $4.00. Four dollars, for a brownie? Thats nuts! (I did not actually say that, but that was what I was thinking though.) Needless to say, I said "nevermind, I changed my mind." Now, once upon a time, Boston used to be a nice place to live with reasonable prices for things, not a whole lot of construction and no worries about being poked in the eye with an umbrella. Needless to say, I really miss what Boston used to be! April 28, 2004 I am feeling quite stressed this afternoon. It has been very busy at work, and I yet still have a move to do. Oh well, I at least just hired someone for $110.00 an hour to help me move. At least its one less thing to worry about. Another moving company wanted to under bid, however I decided to go with the other company instead because they seemed more reputable. And as you may know, moving companies are usually as reputable as car mechanics if you know what I mean? My upstairs neighbors whom I do not talk to too much were just playing a song that sounded a lot just like "Friends" the Michael W. Smith song, except it was in a different language! Hmmmm, interesting, I might add. May 2, 2004 Well, it is Sunday and I survived getting through the move. The moving people ended up costing 330, and could not afford anything beyond that. My friends helped me out, and I got successfully moved just by the skin of my teeth! Needless to say, when it all comes down to it, I am basically a V.D.O.P. which is a very disorganized person. The next time that I move, I am just going to get rid of it all, either that or burn it! In any case, so I am now all out of there and just need to head over there one last time later on to put out all of the remaining trash on to the sidewalk for the trash people. I am now living in an area not far from where I lived once upon a time. And believe it or not, people do not seem to be nearly as high strung here as they did from where I just moved from. And while it is still Boston, it is really nice that I am actually able to walk down the street in my own neighborhood and not have to worry about excessive car horn beeping or being mowed into. Part of the reason for this is because my area has a particular reputation that is a big deterrent to ivy league students. With that said, I am still sure that I will be moving out of Boston area for good at some point fairly soon though. It is just a matter of getting things together and finding out where God would like me live next. In the meantime, I think that I will try to enjoy the process for once. Blessings, Mike --- Oh, btw remember when I had mentioned the other day about hearing the song "Friends" sang in a foreign language? When I had stopped by my old apartment yesterday to give my old landlord back the keys, I ran into my upstairs neighbor. I asked him if he listened to Christian music? It turns out that he and his wife are born again Christians! They were a nice couple, Now, I had known them for 10 months, it is too bad that I did not find this out until after I have moved out! Oh, and one last thing about my old apartment that added to my stress that I did not mention here at all previously at all. I had found out back in late November/Early December that the apartment was not properly zoned at all. And just think that I even used a broker to find me that place! --- WOW, I just posted a real lot! I hope that y'all do not mind reading through them much at all. May 5, 2004 I have an onimous wave hovering over my head right now. It is either that learn how to ride this wave (pending that I can get a leg up ok) or its going to crush me. May 6, 2004 One thing that goes through my mind as I look back at my life during the last few years, I ask myself this question, how have I changed through the years? Where have I grown? Have I seen any breakthrough's or answer to major prayers at all long term? After looking back, there is one prevailing prayer that has been answered. In the mid to late 1990's, I had been praying earnestly for endurance. When I look at the events that have happened to me through the years, I can honestly say that God has answered that one prayer. While I have my good days and my bad days, I think that I can safely say that can I do what it takes to now endure. Speaking of which, it is time for me to go to work today, which is another testimony of this endurance as well. May 7, 2004 For the first time in a while, I am now living over a air route. It is not too bad at all, however it is noticeable though. It all kinda reminds me of when I had my first apartment on my own after moving from my parents. My apartment was right over an air route as well. But in addition to that, it was also right by subway tracks (this was outside,) a major highway, and if that was not enough, there was an ice cream factory whose generator would be going on 24 hours a day! Needless to say, it was not all that quiet at all. I got used to the airplanes flying overhead after about 6 months or so. May 9, 2004 Ever notice that sometimes when it rains it pours? Well, this past week I have had yet a couple of more things go wrong in my life that I really did not need. Yesterday, I went to make a bank deposit like I usually do, except this time for reasons unexplained, the bank would not let me withdraw the amount that I had needed off my check. I was only able to get twenty dollars off of it instead. Needless to say, this put me in a bad situation as since I will not be able to get any more money off the check until Tuesday. Had I known that this was going to be a problem, I would have just deposited the check at where my employer has the account on instead. Someone was nice enough to lend me an extra 20 dollars though, so at least God is providing. Case #2, I was just getting ready to do some laundry that I much needed to get done. Just as I was getting ready, I twisted my back! While I was able to still get the laundry to the laundromat, I am still in pain and quite sore and now wondering how this will effect work tomorrow. Oh well, at least I still have Advil. A friend just recomended that I use a heating pad as well. Now, that might work! On a seperate note, this is my 40th blog posting. It kinda reminds me of Scripture from the NAS Psalms 40: 1 - 17 1 I waited patiently for the LORD; And He inclined to me and heard my cry. 2 He brought me up out of the pit of destruction, out of the miry clay, And He set my feet upon a rock making my footsteps firm. 3 He put a new song in my mouth, a song of praise to our God; Many will see and fear And will trust in the LORD. 4 How blessed is the man who has made the LORD his trust, And has not turned to the proud, nor to those who lapse into falsehood. 5 Many, O LORD my God, are the wonders which You have done, And Your thoughts toward us; There is none to compare with You. If I would declare and speak of them, They would be too numerous to count. 6 Sacrifice and meal offering You have not desired; My ears You have opened; Burnt offering and sin offering You have not required. 7 Then I said, "Behold, I come; In the scroll of the book it is written of me. 8 I delight to do Your will, O my God; Your Law is within my heart." 9 I have proclaimed glad tidings of righteousness in the great congregation; Behold, I will not restrain my lips, O LORD, You know. 10 I have not hidden Your righteousness within my heart; I have spoken of Your faithfulness and Your salvation; I have not concealed Your lovingkindness and Your truth from the great congregation. 11 You, O LORD, will not withhold Your compassion from me; Your lovingkindness and Your truth will continually preserve me. 12 For evils beyond number have surrounded me; My iniquities have overtaken me, so that I am not able to see; They are more numerous than the hairs of my head, And my heart has failed me. 13 Be pleased, O LORD, to deliver me; Make haste, O LORD, to help me. 14 Let those be ashamed and humiliated together Who seek my life to destroy it; Let those be turned back and dishonored Who delight in my hurt. 15 Let those be appalled because of their shame Who say to me, "Aha, aha!" 16 Let all who seek You rejoice and be glad in You; Let those who love Your salvation say continually, "The LORD be magnified!" 17 Since I am afflicted and needy, Let the Lord be mindful of me. You are my help and my deliverer; Do not delay, O my God. --- The first paragraph of text particular speaks to me at the moment. I know that God has done this for me before and presently. I am patiently awaiting for Him to do it again.

humbleinspirit -> RE: The Humble Rumble (4/30/2005 8:21:37 PM)
May 10, 2004 The other day I had mentioned about how God has given me endurance through the years. Well, today was no exception. With my back still quite a bit bothering me, I went into work today. When I got in, I found out that one of my coworkers was not going to be in at all. This basically meant that I would have to put in a full day! I was not worried though, because I had pre-determined in my heart yesterday that I would still go to work, even though things really did not look all that good at all. Now, while my back was not feeling quite as bad as yesterday, it was still not in the best condition today at all. But with people praying for me and Jesus's help, I made it though. By the end of the day, I was actually feeling quite a bit better than I did! I just want to testify to God's goodness in helping me do my best at work today even though I was still quite a bit sore. Now, I would not been able to do this 10 years ago at all. God is good! BTW, I realize that my posting seems not together as I would hoped. I guess that I just typed it as it came to mind and not how it best flowed at all. May 16, 2004 I am feeling sad today. Now, while I do not think that I can necessarially articulate it into words at all, I do know what it is that gotten me a little bit melancholy right now though. May 22, 2004 I really do not like to see my user name associated with my postings anymore. I really no longer feel that it is an accurate representation of who I am or what my personality is. While I am not all that unlike what the handle is, I feel that I have since evolved, and while I am still a part of who I once was, it just does not any longer fit who I am. Now, I have had other handles on Crosswalk as well, including my "Mike" handle, however that one, along with 97% of them are now inactive, thus unable to ever be used again from inactivity. (OK, I made the 97% figure up.) Now, there has been yet another handle that I have been playing with, however I feel that the mystique and the surprise of that handle is now gone though, even as the vast majority of people here do not even know what that handle is, although I have told a few people on various occasions. Anyway, tomorrow is my 35th birthday. Don't I feel special? Mike --- One thing that really amazes me is the sheer amount of good music that came out of the Boston area and beyond during the 1980's. Some that were obscure and local (but good,) and other more national new wave songs that have since been severly forgotten! One of the songs that fit that description that I was thinking about earlier was a song called "Now, I'm talking About Now." So, I am sitting here, and what do I do? I Google it to see if I can find out if there is any information on the song, etc. Upon searching I find out that the song was by a band called "The Swimming Pool Q's." And that this band was from Atlanta. OK, not all bands have to be local in order to be considered obscure. Now, I believe that it was featured in the Pretty In Pink film as well but I am not sure though. The song reminds me of the film either way. There has been many others that have had obscure and unique songs that came out during that time; many from the Boston area as well that could have become big hits as well, had they they been signed to a major label, or marketed properly, but oh well. BTW, this is one of those kinds of postings that months from now I will look back and go "I actually posted that?" May 28, 2004 Hello everyone. I could really use a real lot of prayer right now. Boston is so stressing me out that I do not know how much more I can take of it at all? Also, I just found out today that my closest aunt to me has died. This happened about 3 weeks ago, but only found out today. So, if you could much pray for me, I would highly appreciate it as I am now at my wits end. Thanks, Mike --- BTW, wow, 30 people are regularly following my blog. That is really cool! --- OK, I need to vent: Why is it that bosses give employees such a hard time about stuff? Why is it that they expect you to lay your life down for them? How come they seem to think that I should have this kind of loyalty when my paychecks keep bouncing? Why do bosses seem to frown when you insist that you should have a lunch everyday? (especially when it is even state law mandate that you get at least a 1/2 hour lunch everday? Why do people in Boston just bump into other people, but then think that you are the one with the problem when you object and say something about it? Why do people think that it is ok to talk on cell phones in libraries, and why doesn't the library staff do anything about it at all? Why does it seem like that I am almost always being told that I am the one who is wrong? Why am I so cursed? --- BTW, pray for me as I am very seriously thinking about quitting my job, this afternoon! --- Also, I do not mean to sound so downright negative at all. What I have mentioned are what the devil throws at me nearly daily, and I just sick and tired of it all. --- So, back to the job thing for a moment. How does one deal with a boss who is obviously giving you a hard time and is not appreciating your efforts at all? May 29, 2004 I have a headache today. That is what I get for deciding not to eat last night at all. Oh well, live and learn. --- Some Random Musings. I do not know why, but I always seem to feel tired after eating bacon and eggs. Boston tends to be such a rushed place that even going to the movies is not a pleasant or joyful experience at all. So far, I like this new color of green that I have been posting in. I do not know if I will try other colors or not though. I regret not making a better attempt to stay in touch with my aunt. One of her favorite singers was Andy Williams. (Born Free) June 7, 2004 Just posting here to keep my blog active. I will be posting more later. Here we go again, yet another week. One question that I do ask though, why does it seem like I am almost always in the minority when it comes to my oppinions? June 9, 2004 The weather is humid here this evening. It is raining out right now, and I know that it must be overcast as I am hearing lots of airplanes overhead, about one every few minutes. It is not not very loud though, but rather just noticable. June 11, 2004 Today I started getting a lot of ideas for new threads. Now, I do not know just how many I will be starting or not within the next few days, however I do got a few up my sleeve though, mostly in music. I have another idea for a thread that I want to ask ministry leaders as well. Plus I have another off-shoot thread of an existing thread that has been a hot topic of mine as well that I am thinking of asking somewhere else. Its been a busy week, and my boss is showing more and more new things to do, which helps make me more indispensable I guess, which is not such a bad thing at all, but I still need to increase my income real soon though. Just a few more weeks until July 4th, then all of that big hoopla, or should I just call it chaos? when the national Democratic Convention comes to Boston. I am not all exaggerating when I call it chaos at all. For one, they will be shutting down a vast majority of major highways that week, and are encouraging businesses in the downtown area to actually consider shutting down that week. The elected officials say this all with keeping a straight face insisting that having the DNC here is going to actually be beneficial to Boston and the surrounding area. But that is just the convention, to make it even more interesting, there is a labor dispute going on with the police and the mayor right now, and they have been picketing and attempting to block construction workers from doing the work necessary needed to ensure that things at the location where the DNC is going to be will be up and running ok. In lighter news, I just thought that I would list some songs that have been buzzing through my mind the last few days: A song that has the chorus "All Right" although I think that the official title might be "Float On" by Modest Mouse instead. There is this song called "The Reason" by Hobastank, which a friend has been liking and telling me about. It has been steadily growing on me. I guess that I have to admit that I really do like the new remake of the Cure's "Love Song," which was remade by 311 as well. "Accidentally In Love" by The Counting Crows, which a toned down version has been featured in the movie Shrek 2 has been quite good as well. Other songs that have been good, but are losing their buzz with me have been "This Love" by Maroon 5, and "They" by Jem. Now, the Jem song sounds very weird and strange, however for whatever reason, I have been liking it a lot! Well, I guess I have said enough for now. I hope tow converse with you all again later! Blessings, Mike June 13, 2004 Now I know that this is not anything new to anyone at all, however I have decided that I really must move out of Boston if it is the last thing that I ever, ever do! June 17, 2004 I just started a new thread in News and Politics on something that has really been eating at me for a while now: "Rude and Always Rushing People." In lighter news, I started a fun thread in Community as well: "Headlining Crosswalk Acts Now Featuring..." Now how many can you think of? Enjoy! Mike

humbleinspirit -> RE: The Humble Rumble (5/2/2005 9:15:17 PM)
June 19, 2004 I was feeling a little bit gloomy when I woke up this morning, but I feeling just a tad bit better now though. I had a very stressful day at work yesterday. I realize that while I am a hard worker and aspire to work hard that stress is just not something that I do very well with at all, especially when there is more things going on at work than you can handle or juggle. I am also starting to see a direct correlation between drinking ice-tea on a fairly empty stomach, and my stress level too as well. I also came to the realization again yesterday that just because I haven't eaten and am feeling severely moody as a result, plus the stress thing that has already been mentioned, that it is still not ok to snap at someone regardless. But anyway... --- I was outside earlier today and thinking that here I am 35 years old, and realizing that I do not want to be 35 years old at all. I still wish that I was younger. While I have made some minor accomplishments in my life, it still seems like a far cry from what many others have done by this age. Some people are even married and have kids! Meanwhile I just sit here and realize that things just do not change at all, and if there is something that you put off while you are in your twenties, it will follow you to even in your thirties as well. I look at my mom, who at one time took one of the most untraditional jobs that a woman can take at the time. She worked for a utility company working in man-hole covers. She was harassed a lot, but also enjoyed her job a lot too! She was also a single mom, and this was the only way that she could actually provide very decently for my brother and I. It is way too bad that she hurt her back on the job due to a third party contractor that neglected to do the right thing in regards to safety. It is also too bad that the utility company that she worked for was jerking her around too where she now has permanent back damage and can never really work a regular job again! And people wonder why I have such a strong distrust for major corporations. But anyway... June 20, 2004 I had a visit with my mom earlier today. I showed her the above posting in my blog. She was happy with it. I was also typing something for her earlier as well, but she got upset at me for not typing fast enough or having good keyboarding skills. Now, you have to understand, I actually do quite well for typing, however she just did not think that I was going fast enough. See, I while I can type at least 20WPM, I do end up hitting the back-space a lot. June 30, 2004 Just posting to keep my blog alive. Someone sent me this scripture via email yesterday: Galatians 5:22-23 The fruit of the spirit is love-joy-peace-patience-kindness-goodness-faithfulness-gentleness and self-control." Receiving this was very timely for me, and something that I need to be regularly reminded of. July 4, 2004 HAPPY 4th of JULY EVERYONE! July 10, 2004 As a sit here plowing through my subscriptions, I almost always end up driving through blog town. I read other peoples thoughts, and sometimes get encouraged, then other times discouraged when I read about some unfair thing that has happened to someone. Then I will read something else and go I have a few thoughts on that myself! But then I wonder, should I make a comment? Would it be building up of the community? Questions like in Crosswalk in general always seem to nag me everyone now and then. Guess that I will just make 2 comments though. It was nice to read about Catmutt's adventures in offering a free summer camp for kids that could not afford it at all. It was really awesome to hear about the girls learning how to ride a bike as well! I was bummed to hear Cynthia having bad bout's with doctors! Seems as if arrogance is running rampant in society today! Those were just a couple of things that I have and thought about. Yesterday, I went out with a friend who was visiting in town. It was very nice, and she was telling me about how much nicer churches in other parts of the country are! I could not agree with her more after doing quite a bit of traveling last year and finding myself at some quite alive churches! And while there are surely some alive churches here, things just seem so...um....reserved! It really just does not feel the same here at all! One of these days I will move out of Boston and if not be very happy, at least not feel so much like my life is at a dead-end as it is right now. Well, not too much else happening here. It is Saturday, and it does not seem as though this weekend will be any more different than the others. Perhaps I should just go back to sleep. Mike July 19, 2004 OK, my blog has not been archived yet, good. I was almost running out of time! So, what should I talk about this time? I was thinking over the last few days on how jumping to conclusions or just assuming someone else's intentions can be a very bad thing for everyone involved. You can build an entire story on something just based on circumstantial evidence only to find out that none of what you thought was even as much as remotely true at all. This has happened to me with churches before, not to mention friends too as well. In other news, over the weekend I was chatting in a chat room with some folks until 5AM! Now, I have not done that in a long time, although I still do have fond memories of doing similar things here though. I've been playing a game here in thehumor folder called "Its Not Quite Balderdash!" I really like this game because it allows my creative juices to flow and I like coming up with really unique and quite believable answers. I am really kinda happy about my latest submission and cannot wait until Wednesday's question either! I am very sleepy and tired right now. Also, there is just 7 days left until the UN-democratic National Convention has their convention here, which because of the such tight security and all of the major road closings, will make commuting here a living nightmare. Did I mention that I still REALLY want to move out of Boston? There is this one nagging thing though, a real lot of people actually want to live here. And when I think of possible other cities to live in, the twenty something singles crowds cannot wait to leave there! So, my question is what is my problem? Am I wrong? I just do not know either way. I really wish I could do a study. I would be particularly interested in people who have grown up in places and why they "wouldn't" want to come to Boston, and why that they wouldn't. I would be interested in hearing as to why others choose Boston, and not say, Pittsburgh, PA or St. Louis or something as well. In closing, I was just chatting with MO a couple of minutes ago. She has always been so kind to me and has such a fun and joyful spirit! She has a great testimony too! Why don't y'all send her (Monally77) a note just to say hi. Tell her that I sent you. Well, that is all for now, until next time. Blessings, Mike July 22, 2004 I got the song "Rock And Roll Band" by Boston stuck in my head right now. The lyrics go something like "we were just another band out of Boston..." And the chorus: "Rock and Roll Band, everybody's waiting!" Another song that I have been really liking a lot lately too is "Another White Dash" by Butterfly Boucher. It has resignating lyrics with me such as: "There is something Deep and pulling leaving everything behind Something about having everything You think you'll ever need Sitting in the seat next to you" Now I being a pack rat myself. This something that sounds very appealing for me to do someday. Another song that I have been liking as well is "Just A Ride" by Jem too! July 24, 2004 Rant Warning Ahead! Before I rant, please let me apologize in advance to anyone who might be implicated in this. It is nothing personal at all. With that said, am I the only one who gets annoyed and upset with so-called "progress?" Last night I finally downloaded the latest version of Yahoo Massinger for my computer. I did this in part because I kept on getting a message during start up this past week asking me if I wanted to or not? After seeing this message one last time, I thought "might as well," which I did. I also downloaded it because I have been hearing from my Yahoo messenger friends things like "you really got to download the new Yahoo! Its got all this stuff, etc." Then they would be like, "oh, you only have the old version." Anyway, so fast forward to now and it is downloaded, and it is annoying. While it does have a few cool new features, it was not anything that I absolutely needed at all. First of all, the new buddy screen window takes up half the page. I was more than content on it only taking up 1/4" the page before. Now it is just intrusive. Also, it now has this Avatar thing, something that leaves a lot to be desired. Again, something that I could have easily lived without. Now, there are a couple of other things that bother me about it as well, however just like other programs, I will just have to get used it though. Speaking of programs that seem to annoy me more than being helpful, is Weather Bug as well. Now, maybe I am just old fashioned. Maybe I do not like change at all either, however I am a very firm believer in if something is not broke, then do not fix it at all. July 25, 2004 Well folks, this is it! The National Democratic Convention is finally here. Things start tomorrow. Most of the major roads are closed down. The major Commuter Rail station by where they are having the event is closed down for the next 4 days as well. I fear what traveling tomorrow and for the next 4 days will be like! On a positive note, I will be working my regular hours after all. It looked like as if that was not going to happen as the officials asked businesses to actually close down or alter their hours this week. My place has at least enough work right now that even if we do not get a single client with new work this week, there will still be something to do. A real answer to prayer! Well, that is about it. I am up past my bedtime again, and I really do get the sense that I should allow plenty of extra traveling time tomorrow. Something that I am not very good at allotting at all. Until next time, have a goodnight everyone! July 30, 2004 Well, I made it through convention week. It turned out much better than ever planned! No long commute waits, no crowds, no riots, no nothing! Of course it was like that mostly because the Governing officials threatened that things would be so bad, that 70% of the people stayed away, making Boston a virtual ghost town! I Praise God none the less for having a good week and a lot work to boot too! Now, with that said, it didn't mean that people were suddenly civil at all. I still had a number of people brush into me. What was interesting about all this though was that it was not the conventioners here that were doing this at all. You could tell who was part of the convention because of large passes that everyone was wearing, but much rather the regular same people that are always here that had the usual lack of regard for respect instead! It really showed me that once again, Boston is about the only place this happens, not really much elsewhere at all! Needless to say, moving is still a high priority on my agenda plate. I stayed up very late last night, and just slept for 4 hours, but am now up again. I will likely be going back to sleep soon. August 3, 2004 A Day In the Life Of Forums Posting (well, sort of anyway.) When I signed off on Sunday, I believe that I had only a handful of unread messages. I think that it was around 9 to 11 threads when I had called it a night. On Saturday, I had read everything that was in my message center There were at least 42 unread threads at that point. Fast forward to Monday morning, I had 16 or more. By the time I got home last night, it was up to somewhere between 42 and 48 unread threads. I get this knocked down to about 29, but then it starts adding up again, of course I add new subs as the time goes on too as well. I wake up this morning, it was somewhere around 40 something again. During lunch, there was 54. BTW, it is at this point where you no longer can see all of your messages in your message center at all, because the system is only designed to show you the first 50. I get home tonight, I have hit 60! Now, they say that life begins at 60, or at least I thought that someone said that once! Right now as I type, it is presently down to 55 threads. Of course this was before I started typing this, and it probably has gone back up a little bit since then. Then again, maybe not, it does get slow in here at times, which is good for me, because then I can get all caught up, lol! Now, how did I get all of these subscriptions one might ask? I pretty much have a wide variety of folders that I am subbed to and post in. There does not really seem to be any real dominant folder at all, however I do tend to spend a lot of time in blog town at times though. In Other News WOW, 59 people have voted so far (or at least unique user handle names, etc. ) It looks like the numbers are starting to get closer to evening out though. Also, I forgot, it is not 59 different people, but much rather 58! I forgot that I am included in the results. Well, I just thought that I would share that. Maybe sometime in the future I will explain in which order that I read everything, and which methods that I use to find new and interesting threads as well! Cheerio, Mike --- OK, message center update, I am all the way down to just 18 unread threads now. The vast majority of these are in the Community and Personality For You folders. Unfortunately the reason why these tend to get read last is because I tend to read most of my messages via hitting the new messages tab, and the threads in Community are set up on CW to come up near the end. Therefore it takes me a couple of days sometimes to get all caught up. At least I was able to read over 40 threads, and at least a couple of them in Community anyway. It is now time for me to hit the hay! Until next time, happy reading! WOW, I have had at least 3 people check out my blog since last evening, now surpassing the 60 votes mark! Does a Johnny Fever "frozen on the air rendition. Just kidding! OK, when I woke up this morning and checked my messages, my unread subscription list was up to 34. Now, guess how many unreads that I have now? Yep, you guessed it, 52! And speaking of what goes up and what goes down, sometime between this evening and tomorrow, I get to update my latest thread hobby on Crosswalk: I do not know what this thread was, but I presume that it was "Christian Artists Crossing Over To The Mainstream." In other news, another busy day at work today. I will be happy when it is the weekend! August 4, 2004 Well, I just posted my latest update in the music thread, which is linked above. On an unrelated note, I was thinking, how many people here clear out their cookies on your computers? I know that when I clear mine, that I end up having to vote again in polls, thus I am now wondering if my actual viewing blog numbers are slightly inflated? Now, I surely hope not! August 7, 2004 Oh my, my Blog is the only one of three in Blog Town that has so many postings that it has been labeled a hot topic! As far as my subscriptions, I am all caught up, at least for now anyway. It seems to have been a busy Satuday so far. August 8, 2004 OK, I know that it is Sunday, however I have a grip! It seems that no matter where I live anymore, I am always finding myself in places that have a high percentage of noise. Case and point, the latest apartment that I moved into was supposed to be quiet, and it is for the most part except unbeknownst to me, my landlord who lives upstairs has decided to remodel their kitchen. This means that on any given weeknight or weekend, I am hearing construction going on, or drilling, etc. When I moved in here talking with my new potential roommate, I really grilled him in regard to noise, and strongly stressed that I was looking for a "quiet" place. Now, it is not his fault that the landlord is doing this at all, however I am very, very, very sick of city-life and noise as a whole! My last place was not as quiet as this one, as the tenants upstairs worked the third shift and would come home late, etc. And there were other tenants there too that would talk loud and sometimes have on their stereo, all on a weeknight, and a 1AM. And the place before that? Well, lets just say that the residents in that area did not know the meaning of quiet.

humbleinspirit -> RE: The Humble Rumble (5/2/2005 9:55:38 PM)
August 8, 2004 Ever wonder if the things that you do or the deciscions that you make are right? Ever feel as though at the moment that you decide to do something that it seems very much like the right thing to do only to find that not only was it not the right thing to do, but that you could not have been anymore wrong? I just have this constant nagging that this is what has been happening with me a real lot lately. August 11, 2004 I just started a thread on something that is really bothering me right now "Overcharged At The Register?" Earlier this afternoon, I was at a national grocery chain, one that I will not say the name of, however has only numbers in the stores name and is usually the brunt of Comedian jokes, but anyway. I was there earlier, and the clerk was kind enough to let me know that Pepsi was on sale for 2.22 if I buy 2 bottles. I was like, oh goody, I'm saving money! Now, I bought 4 items in total: 2 Bottles of Pepsi $2.32 (with bottle Deposit) Styrofoam cups $ .75 King Size 3 Musketeers $ 1.19 ---- Now, what is the total that I was charged for that? Yes, you guessed it, $4.76! When I finally figured out that I had been overcharged though, I had already left the store, and did not feel like going all the way back either. Now, I could have decided to go back later instead, however I forgot to get a receipt at all. August 14, 2004 Now, I do not really know why, but it seems that I am almost always tired on Saturdays these days to the point of dragging and not wanting to do anything at all. I do not know if this has to do with me burning the midnight oil during the week or if it has to do with me being tired from working as well? None the less, I feel very sluggish on Saturdays. August 17, 2004 I just want to emphasize again that I hate noise! It does not matter what kind of noise it is. Any noise that is not of my own, whether it be hammering, people talking loud, phone's ringing, stereo's blasting, kids making noise, etc. it all really gets on my nerves! Now, some people have suggested in the past that I move to some remote Island. That may not be such a bad idea. BTW, I am not nearly as stressed out by noise as I was just one year ago. August 18, 2004 I am feeling better than I did last night. I am also in a good mood because out of the blue, I received an email that has allowed me to reactivate my Mike handle as well! I have to start figuring out a better way of managing my subscriptions. On Monday night I had read them all with still a couple to follow-up on. By last evening though, it was back up to 42 or so. I brought that down to 35 or so, but the this morning when I woke up, it was all the way back up to 50! Since my other handle has been reactivated, I might start splitting subs over the 2 handles as so that I do not get overly inundated at all. Just a thought anyway. August 21, 2004 A HEADS UP! It has just come to my attention that there is an email virus going around that is using my email address to other recipients on Crosswalk. Please note that I rarely ever use my addy on Crosswalk to send email at all. If you have received an email from Humbleinspirit2@netcsape.net, do not open it! I almost always use another email addy for emails. (The only exceptions to this is if you sent me an email first in which I have replied instead.) Sorry for any confusion that this might have caused. Blessings, Mike August 25, 2004 I do not like lying to people at all, no matter who it may be. If I get a call from a telemarketer or my credit card company, etc. and I do not want to talk to them, I will quite literally say "I do not want to talk to you right now." Now, they may not like that answer at all, and give me a hard time, however I am surely not going to do the alternative and lie instead. Unlike at home, trying to be completely honest at work though is very challenging though as this culture pretty much expects you to lie. Since I try my best to be an honest person, somehow when my boss tells me to lie to a client or creditor, instead of lying, I end up coming out with a half truth instead, which I am horrible at! Scenario, "is (the bosses name) in?" Me: Who's calling? Them: "This is the XYZ company. Me to my boss: "XYZ is on the phone." My boss to me: "tell them that I am not here." My reply: "I will tell them that you are not available." (note that this is not exactly what your boss wanted you to say.) me to XYZ company: "he is not available." them back to me "when will they be available?" Me back to them: "I do not know." Then I take a message and hang up the phone. Now, I really, really wish that this scenario would not happen at all, however it does often, and I end up not only feeling nothing but guilty, but end up displeasing my boss as well. --- Here is another situation that happened to me today: Ever hold a book in your hand down by your side and be at a subway station? And you are walking up the stairs, and then there are 2 other people walking in the other direction? You stop to allow them to pass you, but instead of them making a mutual yeild, one walks right into you and the book that you are holding at your side instead, but then they get upset at you from the impact because they thought that you hit them instead? August 28, 2004 Saturday Well, I made it to the weekend, yeah! When I woke up this morning, I went into the kitchen go get something to eat and wanted to have some cereal, but realized that there was none left. Also, I had eaten my last package of pop-tarts last night as well. So I am thinking what should I eat? I look in the refrigerator and notice some left over tuna from yesterday as well, and then think to myself "tuna for breakfast? That'll work!" I do have some cheese as well. I haven't actually eaten yet however, I should eat something soon though. It is either that, or go back to bed instead, decisions, decisions... My Threads Title I was thinking yesterday about whether people reading my thread get irritated when I complain about my life in my blog at all? Then I got to thinking about my threads title "THE HUMBLE RUMBLE" which admittedly is an oxy-moron in terms. The first part of the title is short for my user name. As to the second part, the official dictionary meaning to the word rumble is: widespread expression of dissatisfaction or unrest. So in a matter of speaking my title does aptly express my ramblings. So therefore, my title is pretty much apt. then. No offense, but you have been forewarned. September 2, 2004 I have 69 unread messages in my message center right now! When I got home yesterday, I think that I had 54 or something. I got that number down to just 36, but then by this AM I had 51! I will never get caught up at this rate! --- OK, now its seventy! --- I am finally all caught up reading all the unread threads in my message center. I only took a one hour break, but have been otherwise all at it all evening. In the end, I read 14 blogs, up 20 threads in Community and Personality, and a number of them in music, not to mention an ongoing thread that I am posting in too! These do not even include threads that I have bookmarked from previous days that I have been meaning to post in too! I was really amazed that out of the 70 threads, that only one out of the entire list was in news/politics, which is highly unusual as there is usually at least 7-10 that are unread when my sub count is that high. Another good thing is that a real lot of the threads were quick reads as well! No wonder why I get so tired and do not get enough sleep at night! Oh well, at least I have tomorrow off! I will try to get even more caught up then, but do not quote me on that though. Until next time, later! Mike --- Just a clarification, I actually read 16 blogs, and not 14 as previously reported at all. 2 new postings were made this evening while I was clearing out my message center. September 5, 2004 As some of you already may know, I have not been in church in a while. There have been various reasons for this, some in which I have posted in the "Disillusioned With The Church" thread. The only problem with this however is that this means that I have been out of fellowship. So, I wake up this morning and think "this is going to be the day that I go back to church." I wake up, try to motivate myself for the 45 minute plus commute, and then realize that both bus and train schedules are not going to work in my favor due to construction work and shuttle buses etc. Now why the MBTA decided to use Labor Day Weekend to do this stuff, I do not know? In any case, I decide that being late is better than not getting there at all. My reasoning being, I need fellowship, I need to more of Jesus in my life, etc, etc! So, I finally get myself ready, still being bummed about being late, etc. but still was very much ready to make a go of it! I shower, I put on a pair of jeans, but then I switch because I think that they fit a little too tight, so I put on another pair instead which fit much better! I look in the mirror one last time and I am out the door to hopefully catch the train. As I am walking away from my apartment, I notice something very shiny on the bottom of my pants! It turns out that I grabbed my second best pair of pants instead! The pants somehow got a fluorescent marker on them! I think to myself, don't worry about it, I go to an artsy church, what harm could there be? Then I remember that was not the look that I was looking for at all. I walk a bit more, and I realize that this is too noticeable and it is just not gonna work! So, here I am at home. I almost made it, even got out the door, and yet no cigar again! I really need fellowship, but I just do not know how it is going to happen at this manor at all though. September 6, 2004 I wake up this morning to check my messages wondering how many there might be, thinking that there would be somewhere around 10-20 tops. When I did sign on though, I had 30! People have been busy posters since I signed off last night! I am bored today, but happy to have the day off though. As I posted in the TV and Radio folder, I have been listening to the History of Rock and Roll on my local Oldies station. Its been interesting to hear a bit of nostalgia! Well, not much else is happening today. I hope that I actually do something productive and not find myself on the computer all day. Until next time, be at peace, Mike --- Oh yes, I forgot to mention, someone sent me a Gmail invite last night. I now have a Gmail email address, woohoo! --- I really have to admit, I really do not understand God at all. Once again a situation in my life has come up that is turning my life off-kilter. This seems to be a very regular part of my life. When I think that everything is going to be OK, it turns out that it isn't at all. Please bear in my mind that this is my stress posting right now, so I may end up regretting this post later. In any case, if you think of it, please say a prayer for me this afternoon as I really could use it right now. Blessings, Mike September 12, 2004 Jesus is the way, the truth, and the life. No one comes to the father except thought me Now, I really do believe this, however for whatever reason it just does not seem to be adding up in my life at all though. Re: life update: so here's the deal, if you have not heard already I found out that I have to move again. My roommate situation just isn't working out, so I have been asked to move out. I cannot not even begin to say how stressful and disappointed that I am about all of this. A few people have suggested that I take this time to finally make the big move to another city. However considering that this was somewhat of a "surprise" that I was not prepared for, there is no real way that I could just relocate on such short notice and with no real prospects at all. Also, I really do not want to move at all, however I really do not have a choice in the matter though. Needless to say, I feel unsettled again, and stressed at the same time. In other news, I did finally make it to church today, but I have pretty much come to the conclusion that I am really not really going to be going there much anymore though. God is just simply calling me to a different place I believe.

humbleinspirit -> RE: The Humble Rumble (5/9/2005 10:33:18 PM)
September 16, 2004 Ever have to make a very serious decision that could effect your life for at least months to come if not for a year and yet not which way is God's will at all? Ever feel paralyzed by this decision making fully knowing that a wrong choice could lead to much disaster? As a result have you ever just delayed making any decision at all which led to you having to making a choice by default instead as the other option was no longer available? I am in very much one of those situations right now as I type. I really desperately need to hear God's voice in this, however all that I seem to be getting is confusion sprinkled with some pro's and con's of each decision. I really feel that there is a definite way to go, but I just do not know what at all though. The question comes down to do I want to be comfortable or should I do something new instead? Also, is the other door even open at all as well? All that I got to say is I do not know, I do not know, I do not know! All that I do know is one is very cost effective, but may not compatible at all, and the other is not cost effective at all, but will give me peace of mind. So that is my dilemma. I really do hope that God speaks to my heart right away! Blessings, Mike September 20, 2004 Just a couple of things that I wanted to mention until I have more time later on. I found a new apartment and will be moving in less than 2 weeks! God is good! Now I just got to get everything packed! I have also continuously been seeing God's faithfulness in my life these past 2 weeks as well! I am feeling tired this morning. I am hoping for a easy and smooth day today if at all possible. Well, that is all for now. I hope to enter more here later! Blessings, Mike September 26, 2004 This is my 100th blog entry, yeah! I was going to post in my blog the other night when I was upset about something and felt the need to vent. I wanted the posting to be special and not just some random rigmarole or other ranting at all. After sharing with a very good friend about my struggle, she decided to pray for me online. After the prayer I decided to wait. It think that it was good that I did wait as I in one of those "I really should not be online right now because I am so upset!" Anyone who knows me by now, know that when I reach a certain state that it just better for me to shut off the computer and let myself cool down. Most of the time it has nothing to do with anything happening online, however when I am that upset, I am like gasoline that explodes the moment that it hits a match. I am very happy that both nothing had upset me that night and that I was able to cool down! Anyway, a thought that the posting above was worth being my 100th posting. I hope that everyone is having a good weekend so far! Blessings, Mike --- OK, I am feeling irritable and noise is bothering me again today. Its just this sense of having noise overload. You want it to be quiet, but all of the little sounds of the city just keep adding up! This morning for example, I have heard airplanes, neighbors, car alarms going off, and my roommate. Now, most of these by themselves are not so bad, however when you are looking for rest and relaxation, this all can be quite a bit much. In any case, I am feeling fairly mellow at the moment, but I just wish that I could have 100% silence if that were at all possible. --- This is my 3rd posting in my blog within the last 24 hours. While I normally do not like to post anything more than once or twice a day tops, I will probably be posting a bit more than usual for the next week as I look for a place to vent while I get ready for my move. I do not have anything really packed yet, but it should be fairly easy to do so once I have started though. I am still getting potential people lined up to move, and I do have a van secured as well. I took a nap earlier in which I rested fairly well only to waken back up by the sound of someone cutting wood in half with one of those electric saw cutters. Also, there is some bizarre chemical smell that is annoying me too. It smells like some type of glue or fluid that is used to fix things. My phone just rang. I hate it when the phone rings because it is very rarely for me, and yet the phone itself when ringing is also annoying. Somehow I get the impression that all of this is not normal, and yet at the very same time, I do believe that I am not the one who is insane, but anyway. September 28, 2004 I had a tiring day at work today, in fact it was very busy yesterday as well. Every time I think that maybe I would want to work at a law firm again, I am reminded as to exactly why I am not in any hurry to return to one anytime soon at all. It just seems that my works largest clients, which also happen to be large law firms not only give us the worse work which is very tiring and aggravating, but also have unrealistic deadlines to them as well. Now, while I am grateful for the work, I am not at all grateful for getting physically and emotionally drained by all this work. Yesterday, I worked 9 1/2 hours with an hour lunch. Today I worked just over nine hours with only a 20 minute break. Which in the end just makes me really tired. Did I mention that I am moving on Saturday and I still haven't packed yet at all? I have learned a lot in the last 2 years. I learned not to ever take anything for granted as it could always be worse, and I am learning more and more to be very thankful for God's provision in my life. It is just that today was a bad day for me though. Now, I realize that I am where I am due in part to bad choices that I made when I was laid off almost 2 years ago now. I decided to take the fairly easy way out and work at the first place that hired me without still trying to pursue something better at all. I just tend to get too comfortable with the status quo in general, which is a real weakness of mine. Years ago, this would work out OK though as while I was not making a lot of money at all, I was at least making a sufficient income. I cannot really say that I am doing that now. I am primarily good at maintaining, just not making big extra changes in my life at all. --- My roommate just knocked on my door a couple of minutes ago and offered me some pineapple that he had bought. It was really good! Even though I am moving out, I my roommate and I not only continue to get along well, but he has been really generous in helping me out with some stuff as well! He got me a free monitor from his work which they were going to throw out. He was able to help me get a new bed too, etc. I feel that moving here has been beneficial to me as it has helped me become aware of some things that I need to deal with. I am also exciting with the new chapter that will be happening in my life as well! OK, this is enough blogging for now. I will post more as life permits. Blessings, Mike September 29, 2004 I had a better day at work today. While I worked 9 hours straight, the day still flew by. I did miss lunch though and I haven't eaten yet at all either. I still have not been able to get my laundry done yet and I still have done any packing yet at all for moving either. At least it will be easy to pack though. I do feel like I am once again falling behind the 8 ball again however. I still hate it when the phone rings as well. I really oughta just go buy some earplugs. October 5, 2004 My move went very smoothly and I am getting adjusted to my new place. I am presently without internet, but I should be back on full time by the 13th though. Also, I have contemplated just being on dial-up for the time being, however I am not sure if I am going to do that or not yet at all. I heard that I have a certain writing style. Now, how is that for a Mikism? October 14, 2005 OK, here is yet another rant! My boss was talking to me today and said to me that I took too long copying something on Tuesday and that we lost money on it as a result. I complained back saying that I had been interrupted several times and that the job was loaded with paper clips! He responded with that it still should not have taken me as long as it did. I then replied back with I really do not see how it could have been done any much faster at all, would you have preferred that I rushed it and botched it up instead? He said that he did not know what the exact job was so he did not know. OK, so lets just recap some things here, my boss thinks that: I take too long to do my job. That I should work much faster than I do. Thinks that I have an attitude problem. Never seems to be happy with my work. Doesn't like it that I will not "lie" to clients, telemarketers or bill collectors. Seems to frown that I want to take a lunch even when it is busy. Thinks that even though I am only part time, that I must stay when it is busy, even when it is not convenient for me to do so. Here is what I think: I get to work everyday on time. I do the best job that I can, which includes quality over quantity. By law I am required a lunch regardless of what my boss "thinks." On Holidays, I am only paid part time pay, so he really has got a real nerve to be demanding that I stay beyond my "regularly" scheduled hours. By law I am supposed to be paid right on payday. There is no money in the bank? Well go tell that to the department of labor. I do not get any health insurance at all, am only paid 6 paid Holidays a year, and get no vacation time. One of my coworkers regularly smokes, and my boss does not say anything about it at all even though it is against State law to be doing so. (btw, the smoking irritates my eyes and makes me chock!) My coworker also seems to be late fairly often and yet my boss does not seem to care, yet when I was having attendance problems myself a year ago, this was somehow a "big deal!" What even bothers me more is the reason why he claims to be late are the same exact reasons that I was claiming! Now, with all that said, do you really think that I give a hoot that my boss so-called lost some money? October 15, 2004 OK, I was quite a bit harsh yesterday about my boss and my whole job in general. I did want to mention that today went a lot better for the most part until the end of the day. Apparently the boss was not happy that I was ready to leave after 7 and a 1/2 hours of being at the job even though there was hardly anything to do at all. Just for the record, my regularly scheduled hours are 6 hours, so it was not like I was trying to cheat out on work at all. In any case, my boss and I had a quite a bit of a big argument. He was like how can you be heading out when I am out on errands? I replied with "there was nothing to do!" This also became an issues yesterday as well. It was extremely slow like watching the walls and seeing if anything changes at all slow, and after talking with a coworker about whether I should go home or not, I reluctantly said OK just having this funny feeling that somehow this was not such a good choice. I told them to just give me a call if I was needed at all. While moseying about around where I work and dealing with the usual hassle of other people being "I am in such a hurry that you are in my way and thus I am knocking you down!" I decided that I would just head home. I called home to see if I had any messages at all? I did not have any from work, so I just went ahead and went home. I find out today that there was a sudden project where they could really have used me! I was like why did you not call, I hung around the area for an hour! He said that he thought that it would take too long to get back to work, yaddah, yaddah, yaddah. Now, I seem to suffer from this problem called good judgment so it seems. I never seem to get it right and if there is any chance of I making a bad decision, I will. I just seem to be a natural at this. Anyhow, that was my week. I am just glad that it is the weekend even though both my job, Boston and even my bills are depressing me! Oh well, I think that I will just go take a really long nap later on and try to forget things for a while. Mike October 16, 2004 As I woke up this morning, I go to check my messages in my message center and find that as of right now I have 67 unreads in my message list. This presently includes 8 unread blogs, and a couple of other folders one in which I subscribed to the entire one just to check new threads better, which in reality is was not the best idea in retrospect. I got all caught up on Thursday evening, and by the time that I had signed off, I then had only 2 unreads as well. As of last night I had 56 unreads or so, with I only checking a grand total of 3 threads all together. I just was not up for reading last night. Why do I mention all of this? I was hoping to at one point give everyone a breakdown as to how many threads were in each folder of my message center on a given day, but that seems a bit daunting right now though. Oh well. Here it is only a little bit after 8AM. I think that I might read for a little while and then just go back to bed. Mike October 17, 2004 OK, I am almost finished reading up in Blog Town. I actually had 9 unreads here alone with one more to go. Last night, I read 2 blogs: one that I regularly follow, and one new one that was added to the roster as well. I am down to 59 unreads now. It does appear that one new unread had popped on since I started reading. I am keeping track. October 17, 2005 Happy Sunday! Here are the final results from my long and outstanding poll question: Poll Question: Are you keeping up to date on my blog? 73 total responses 1) (57%) - Yes 2) (42%) - Just Browsing --- It was a very busy day for I yesterday in forums. I went to bed fairly late last night. When I woke up this morning, I figured that maybe I would have something like only 3 or 4 unread messages. I was wrong, I now have 26 new ones since 3AM! Here is what my new non-binding referendum poll question is going to be: "Do you like hearing about my daily adventures in Crosswalk subscriptions?" I will put the new poll up shortly. Blessings, Mike --- I heard an insanely funny song on the radio today that probably somehow aptly applies to my life to an extent. The song is called "1985" by Bowling for Soup. Here is a partial list of lyrics and chorus to the song: She hates time make it stop when did Motley Crew become classic rock? And when did Ozzy become an actor? Please make this stop Stop! And bring back Bruce Springstein, Madonna way before Nirvana there was U2 and Blondie and music still on MTV her two kids in high school they tell her that she�s uncool cuz she's still preoccupied with 1985

humbleinspirit -> RE: The Humble Rumble (5/14/2005 9:54:28 AM)
October 19, 2004 WOW, half of you really do not like hearing about my Crosswalk adventures? Oh well! I finally went o the dentist today to deal with what has become a major issue with a tooth. The dentist informed me that the best thing to do would be to take the pulp out and it would be a royal shame to pull it. So, you all know what that means. I do not even have the money for a route canal, much less anything else these days. Once upon a time, when a situation like this would happen, I would just whip out the credit card, and it would be all over and done with, but not anymore though. I guess that I am just learning the real hard way to live within my means! My job is going a little bit better. I am learning that although I have a real lot of issues with my boss, that those things he is not doing personally against me at all per say. While they are still wrong, I really do really need to understand my boss and to not take so personally either. I really do need a new job though, however I really do feel that I am at an overall disadvantage at the moment. In a way I would feel like I was just spinning my wheels! I worked over 8 hours yesterday and today and was very much thinking that today was Wednesday. In other news, I never did really talk about my new apartment at all. It is in a quiet area off the beaten path and is thought of by others as being nice. There is no worry about rush and push of students and professionals here! I am just far enough off the beaten path that they do not want to live in this area at all. I am just a very quite commute to work as well! I am renting a 2 room studio from people that I have known from the last church that I have attended and they are very nice to have as friends! Well, that is about everything for now. More updates as I post them. Mike October 21, 2004 Work update. What a difference a week makes! I had what amounted to a very good day! Yesterday there was this computer project that had to be worked on. It involved printing a document in book format, however the printers that we have do not have that software option on it at all, and thus it had to manually switched around in Acrobat no less! All that I got to say is that I do not even know a whole lot about Acrobat! The document needed an extra 3 blank pages and had to be rearranged to boot! It also had to be printed 2 to a page and double-sided as well. (I will likely be starting a thread asking about how the Acrobat works as a whole.) Now, I never have prepared documents for printing in abook format before and after banging my head for a few hours, I finally knew what needed to be done! However, it was the end of the day and I needed go home! The whole scenario reminded me of a Flintstones episode when they went to Rock Vegas, but anyway... When I prepared it yesterday, I did it the way that most people not familiar with the format would do it: I reconfigured the pages working from the middle out-wards. Now those of you that have done this before, you know why that was wrong! After taking the book and putting and numbering each page as to how I "thought" that it should probably be done instead, I struck gold! Basically, in order for something like that to work, the very last pages have to be put in the middle of the book instead! Anyway, I am very happy that I got it to work! Another good thing is that we tried running this very same job for a client a month ago, but couldn't because the printer with the software was down. They ended up having to outsource it, which cost-ed my boss a lot of money and they had blamed me for it. However, this latest project with the printer fixed ended up proving that it could not have been done anyway. My boss had talked to someone else familiar with how printing such things and said "yeah, most machines have not caught up with the idea of book printing yet." So, to make a long story short, it wasn't my fault after all. In lighter news, I have a couple news stories and threads worth noting: "Al Green: Soul Great Ends War Within Himself" I found the article very interesting! Annoyed By TV? Silence it With Your Keychain!" Now if they only had it for cell phones as well. And finally, while I am not particularly a fan of baseball at all, however I cannot help but be really happy about the Red Sox vs. Yankees winning the Pennant! I now going to test my new signature to go with it. --- Poll Results: 16 total responses 1) (31%) - Yes 2) (25%) - Sometimes 3) (43%) - Not Really 4) (0%) - What are you talking about? I am new here! 5) (0%) - Only visiting this blog. New poll coming shortly --- BTW, I know that almost half of you did do not care for it when I post about forums subscriptions adventures, and that a few of you do. For those who voted for not minding hearing about it, I thank you. --- For those who don't, then I kindly just ask that you bear with me and do what I do when I come accross something in a blog that I am not interested in reading at all and just kindly jump over it instead. And finally one last word of note, when I am in forums, one of the essential tools that I use when posting I am posting something is a spell checker called called IE Spell. It works wonders!

humbleinspirit -> RE: The Humble Rumble (5/14/2005 10:00:48 AM)
October 22, 2004 There was something that I was going to post in my blog, however I decided to start a new thread and post what was on my mind there instead: "Cops� Pepper Shot Kills Student in Boston After Boston's Victory" In lighter news, the song "Playground In My Mind" by Clint Holmes has been rattling in my head off and on for nearly a month now. Thank you for checking out the link. Mike October 28, 2004 WOW, I have not posted here in nearly a week! Today has been a rather tough day. I worked less than what I usual work at my job, and I am quite a bit worried about money. Between that and a couple of other issues in my life, I am just feeling a tad bit overwhelmed these days. Not so much that things are out of control as much as just having this uncertain anxiety in my life. I worry about friends, I worry about hurting people, sulk that I do not have enough in person contact in my life, and yet at the same time realize that I am partly to blame for some of this, however not all of it is my doing though. I do believe that I have grown within the last 2 years and even find myself handling difficult situations differently and much better than I have in the past. I guess that I do not have much else to say at all, however I just thought that I would post is all. In more positive news, the Red Sox won the World Series in what can only be what did not seem likely just a couple of weeks ago. They are a quintessential an all American against all odds success story! A team that not only enjoyed what they did, but did not allow pridefulness to get in their way at all either! Manny Ramerez is especially encouraging playing even though he was in unbearable pain! He showed a real endurance and doing whatever it takes for the team. He was also the first to give all the credit to Jesus as well, in which he said that he would not even be able to do what he did on his own, WOW! So, here it is, the Red Sox first won the penant agains the Yankees when everyone thought that they would lose, then won the World Series as well! They are an inspiration to me and anyone who has ever followed them. --- It never ceases to amaze me how I can be totally relazed and content only to be massively annoyed by some minor but continueing noise. Tonight has been just such a night where how I have been marveling at just how at peace I have been feeling, only for it to be disturbed by a constant car alarm beeping minorly. I do not doubt that I have some kind of problem with myelf regarding noise, but I just do not know what the solution is at all though. November 4, 2004 Just a couple of random thoughts Last week when I spoke of the Red Sox pitching. I incorrectly mentioned Manny Ramerez in regards to the pain issue. It was Curt Schilling that had done the pitching that particular night, and he even gave all the credit to Jesus for helping him make it through that game too! I am so glad that the election is over and that Kerry did in fact concede as quickly as he did. Only 24 hours ago it was looking as if it was going to be a long and drawn out legal battle! But for what its worth, thank you John Kerry for doing the noble thing and not making this country suffer at all. Go Bush! Weather bug is indicating that it is 33 degrees right at the moment. That has been the coldest that it has been in a while! Been another busy week at work. Monday started out really slow, but then on Tuesday a large project came in and we have been busy since! I still want to know why it almost always gets busy all at once though, why there could be no work at all, then suddenly have 3-4 clients all wanting it now? OK, it wasn't that bad yesterday, but fairly close though. Finally, one of my threads made room and board this week: Your First Defining Moment on Crosswalk Thank you Fritz! --- I had another one of those days, you know one where work all day long, get into an argument with both your boss and your coworker, but they both think that you are the one who is in the wrong? Also, where someone bumps right into you even though they had ample room to move around you, but then get upset at you showing your disapproval of their very selfish act? There really oughta be a law that if you cannot watch where you are going then your walking privileges should be revoked and your shoes be taken away. Even though work ended OK and I a bus stopped for me even though they did not have to at all, I get home only to hear yet another message from a company that I owe money to, which I immediately hit delete because I told them already that not a thing has changed since the last time that I talked to them, only 2 weeks ago. I really ask myself, how can people be so much the way that they are? Sometimes I really just want to crawl under a rock. --- Needless to say, I am looking for things to be thankful for right now in the midst of gloom.

humbleinspirit -> RE: The Humble Rumble (5/14/2005 10:05:18 AM)
November 5, 2004 I am watching the TV show "Less Than Perfect" right now. There was just a scene on where one of the characters got really jumpy over "noise." That person is surely me, and I am not alone! November 9, 2004 I had yet another busy but not so great day at work. I worked 9 1/2 hours without taken a lunch because it was so busy, and yet my boss is still not satisfied with my job performance. I am starting to go into a very bad mind set, one to the point where even though I am being relied on to be there every single day and on time, that I am losing all motivation to do so. I am really just starting just not to care anymore. If I could take a mental health day today, I would, but I can't so I won't, however something has got to give though. I know that we are supposed to work, and I do not deny that at all, however when you are constantly being overloaded with work and your boss is still giving you a hard time about work performance then there is a serious problem. I do not even get vacation or sick time, nevermind not knowing if my paycheck is going to be good the day that I get it! What is my boss really thinking, is he nuts? I really do not feel like going to work today, but I guess that I must. Oh well, I wonder what is going to happen if things keep on going the way that they do? Finally, I know that I need to find another job, however I am not in a position to do that at the moment. Hopefully by the middle of next week I will be. November 13, 2004 Just some random thoughts I've been reading other blogs and I am starting to notice that I am not the only one here that has bosses giving people an unreasonable workload. When you think that you are the only one that is feeling overworked but under appreciated, it really takes a blow to your self-esteem and you think that maybe you are the one who is not pulling your weight, etc. After reading in blogs and forums 3 others are getting excessive amounts of work, I see that it is becoming a U.S. epidemic and not something soley isolated to just merely me at all. The splitting of my forums subscriptions between 2 of my user handles as been working out quite beautifully. I no longer feel overwhelmed! I am learning a lot of things from a thread that I started in Faithwalk about the Pentecostal movement. People's postings have been really insightful! I am actually seriously starting to desire wanting to go back to church again! Work is going the usual, but a bit better. Part of my right foot has been hurting me off and on the last 2 weeks. I feel a sharp pain right in the ball of my foot. The only way to describe it is as if I have a chipped bone or something and it is pinpointing the pain there at an edge, it is below the large toe in the first part of my foot though, so it cannot be a bone at all. I used to have the same type of pain with my knee as well. while I have never had any x-rays done at all, I am convinced that I had somehow chipped a bone there as well. Another thing that I noticed while not being new at all is that sometimes I am forgetful to a fault! Well, that is all that I can think about for more. More later as life happens. Mike November 20, 2004 Another week has come and gone. It has been a pretty good week so far, albiet just a little bit slower than it has been. I am not complaining though as I did get enough work to be satisfied. Its Saturday Morning and I am a little bit irritable at the moment. I have noticed a direct correlation between not eating breakfast and regular noises that really annoy me. 2 things this AM which have been getting on my nerves. My heat has been making banging noises when the furnace is not on. It is probably either air in the pipes or a switching valve is broken or something. None the less, I tend to hear loud bangs from it every 20-30 seconds or so. The second thing is someone is using a sink upstairs as if they are either doing dishes or using a bathroom sink or something. They keep turning on the water for only 2-3 seconds and shutting it off, but when they do shut it off though, it is also making a loud noise and making the pipes rattle. Its things just like this that really annoy me! I have found that the earplugs do very well at buffering the noises that I hear on a regular basis. In fact last night while wearing them, I had put my clock radio on what sounded pretty low with them on. I woke up and hour or two later and took them out and noticed that while it was not all that loud, that it was still quite a bit louder than I thought! I found a new radio station to listen to that I can only really get where I live now. It plays a bunch of older songs and could be considered easy listening by todays standards. The songs are not all that light at all, just mostly ones that you do not hear on the radio all that much anymore at all. Here are the results to my poll: Poll Question: In posting #114 in paragraph's 4, 5 and 6 I mentioned about syncronizing the order of pages for the book wrong. Would you have done the same thing? 10 total responses 1) (30%) - Yes, I have trouble printing documents in a book format either. 2) (20%) - No, things like that come to quite naturally. 3) (20%) - No, its what I do for a living. 4) (30%) - Other - please comment in my blog reply thread if you could. I am probably going to start a new poll soon. -Mike-

humbleinspirit -> RE: The Humble Rumble (5/14/2005 10:07:23 AM)
November 23, 2004 I really feel like that I have been under a deep spiritual attack all the way around. I am sensing that no matter what I do, that things just keep on going wrong. It also looks like that I am on this slippery slope and that it is not going to get better at all. No matter how hard I try to do things at my job, there always seems to be contention. Its amazing that I have lasted there as long as I have. Each day seems like that it could really be my last day. I do not talk about my family much at all, however my mom is bi-polar and has not been herself for over 3 1/2 years now. It does not matter how little I talk to her, everytime that I do, I just get completely upset by what she says. Remember my heat situation? Well, they checked it out earlier and came to the conclusion that because the building is really old, the thumping that I have been hearing is not anything wrong with the heating system per say, but much rather the pipes expanding and thus causing the wood in the walls to creak instead. While this can be fixed, it is not going to be either and easy or a cheap one at all. Then there are other situations that effect everything as well. sigh. November 25, 2004 Warning, please do not read this posting today if you do not want to hear anyone complaining Today is Thanksgiving, however I am finding it hard to be Thankful for a lot of things today. I am feeling a little bit better than yesterday though. Last night I read some of the Book of Ecclesiastes. It had been on my mind during the later part of yesterday. In a way it is too bad, because before the horrible day that I had yesterday I was all set to list a bunch of things that I am Thankful for. I also have not been in much of a posting much in forums the last couple days and I presently have 68 unread messages alone. Its all the same. I have nothing to look forward to, these 4 days will come and go, then it will be Monday again. I will have to deal with work plus arrogant and "bullies" who bump into you only to choose a fight when you object to it. It seems that the answers people give me to how to cope are really not tangible solutions at all. I was in a really bad frame of mind yesterday, and yet I am the one who is being seen as being wrong. I will ask this, isn't it wrong not to love your neighbor and be bumped into even though you had plenty of room to walk around? And yet I even know Christians that bump into people in this city! So here it is, I am just supposed to take it without saying anything at all? Yes, I know what Jesus says about turning the other cheek and forgiving, but I am very much failing there. Where I grew up if someone banged into you the "only" reason for doing so was to instigate a fight. People say that I need to deal with my anger and yes I agree, however no one is really giving me any real and practical answers as to "how to" though. One of my good friends last year suggested that I buy the anger management workbook by Minerth Myer. I do not know how helpful that it would be at all. Basically the bottom line is that I need help, but I am not getting the help that I need, so this vicious cycle is not going to end. November 26, 2004 Well, today is looking a bit better than yesterday. Last night I had dinner with my neighbors and played Karaoke which was a lot more fun than I would have thought! I found that while they do show the words while you are singing, I do my best when I already know the lyrics to the song. I belted out a mean Jump by Van Halen and Billy Joel's "Piano Man." I also sang How Deep Is Your Love by the Bee Gees as well. A song that used to sing into a tape recorder when I was just 7 years old. Its amazing that some 27 years later that I still do not know the lyrics to the song. I am going to be hanging out with a friend today which should be fun. Of course I have to hassle around the usual morons of Boston who will most definitely bump into me while I go and I will have to seriously figure out how to deal with that. Which reminds me, they say that advice comes a dime a dozen. To my critics, before anyone judges me, try walking a mile in my shoes first

humbleinspirit -> RE: The Humble Rumble (5/14/2005 10:09:40 AM)

December 4, 2004

My favorite song right now is "Daughters" by John Mayer.

I thought that it would be cool to post flashback of songs that I have liked it years past using a particular time-line:

one year ago
"Hey Ya"-Outkast: A very upbeat and infectious song that you just cannot help but like when you hear it!

3 years ago
It was likely "Everything You Want"-Vertical Horizon. Just another one of those songs on why he is all wrong for you and how I am the right guy instead kind of song. Both lyrically and musically it was a cut above all the other songs that was out at the time.

5 years ago
"Out Of My head" - Fastball. A really nice and catchy ballad by the same group that is well renown for their song "The Way."

10 Years Ago
"I Got You Babe!" Beavis and Butthead featuring Cher. This parody version of the song really rocks!

20 years ago
"Do They Know Its Christmas"-Band Aid. Hey, what can I say? The song was only 3 weeks old then and was the first very fresh Christmas song to come out up to that point in my lifetime. But the big question is are you sick of hearing it yet? I think that would make a great new poll!

While not all of these songs were necessarially my favorite during the first week of December on these dates in history. They were approximates. I hope that you enjoyed this nice personally musical excursion down memory lane.

December 6, 2004

I woke up in a mixed mood this morning. I fell to sleep listening to praise and worship music and woke up this AM listening to Joyce Meyer, who was preaching on some good things although I cannot remember exactly what though.

As expected, I found myself quite tired this AM. As I got ready to shave and think about the day, I realized that some cold cuts that I bought at the store yesterday which were a bit expensive never made its way into my refridgerator. That alone was enough to depress me.

I just have a constant feeling of I really do not know how much longer that I can continue on this merry-go-round. I feel like that I really need a vacation right now, but I know that I am not going to be getting one anytime soon though.

I guess that it is just as well anyway as considering how I have been feeling lately, the time off would be just wasted not doing anything productive, thus not really being all that enjoyable anyway.

I need to get ready for work now, I hope that everybody has a good day!